An abyss of misery

2008-06-22T16:32:00.001+08:00

Initially I was still feeling ok. But when I look at my blog, I don't know why I turn Emo out of a sudden once again.. Messaged him yesterday, as expected, he didn't reply. Never mind. Finally I understand how Jen felt, the feeling is seriously unbearable. It kept me thinking. Your action does not fit your words, you know? You once told someone what to do when he's in this situation as well. Then why aren't you doing what you've told him? Sigh.. Contradicting isn't it? I really think I'm behaving rather impulse. As everytime I send out a message, when I review it , I felt that I have more to add on. But I just couldn't get myself to send out the second message. I have loads and loads of thing to tell you. But I don't have the chance, the courage... I wanted to ask you out and talk to you. But I don't know how to face you... Sigh... Can you tell me what to do?

I don't know if I want to put my blog back to public.
I'm still considering. (:
Just came back from outside. Went to Aunt house for stayover yesterday. Woke up in the morning and went to bugis temple to pray and my aunt ask me to ask for a lot ( Is it call lot? ) Anyway it's 求签 la. Seriously, I broke down in front of aunt yesterday. I realize that many things are kept from me. It's alright actually. But I can't accept the fact that they are all lying to me. I seriously cannot take it.
~~Family?~~
~~Father and mother I love you...~~
Mummy are packing her stuffs already.. How? I really don't know what to do... Should I follow mummy? Or should I follow Daddy? )): All this thing kept me thinking and thinking..
Perhaps I should put down ** first? As Daddy and Mummy's thing are more important... Anyway I'm left with less then 3 months to make my decision.. I tend to avoid from this topic. But aunt keep reminding me not to , and I should face it.. I'm going berserk soon... Who can talk to me? Perhaps what I needed is a companion, someone to be there listening to my craps and is able to just keep quiet and lend me a shoulder.. ):

2008-06-21T18:00:00.003+08:00

如果我说我开玩笑的,你一定会说我是神经病!
哈哈哈哈!

Yesterday I went to meet up with Cyn and co for awhile in the evening and left them at 7plus to kahhao's place. Mahjong is a thumbs up I should say. Initially I thought I'm losing money. But thanks god, the last game I won and I need not pay anyone. Hehe. Instead I won $0.60. LOL! Ok. It's a small amount only. But I win leh! HEHE. Jie won the most. Bran lost the most . Lol. Kh lose a bit only. Ahaha. Then Jie longbang me home. Thanks!
By the way, heard from Jen that TWT vs Tagawa . They lost. I'm really very sad la. ): Good thing is that I'm not there. If not I'll really broke into tears. Sigh... Anyway, Great job guys! You've done a great job to get to this far. Seriously, this time the fixtures are like the worst of all. So , if you're able to get this far , it's very good already! Press on guys! Next year will be better! ^^
Last but not least, 1, 2, 3, TONGWHYE! (:

Reached home, used com for awhile and headed for bed. I couldn't get into my dreamland as I was thinking about a lot of things. Sigh... I won't get this drunk anymore. I won't let impulse decision to cause anymore regrets already. ):
I'm sorry I'm really sorry. I shouldn't have told you this. I should have kept it inside my heart. I really regretted it. I've been waiting for myself to have the courage to tell you all this. But I didn't expect things to turn out this way. I mean, not in this situation to let you know. Although I felt a little better after letting you know, but the aftermath is even worst. That little better doesn't makes the aftermath a little better. You get what I mean? I hope you're reading this? Actually I don't really know whether I want you to read this. I myself are left in a dilemma either. I don't wish to add on anymore troubles to you . I'm really sorry. I just hope that you're fine. I'm contented as long as you're happy. Seriously, I'm 庆幸 that I've met you . Thanks for everything . I don't think I'm able to face you like I used to . So, I hope you'll stay happy and everything's fine for you. I won't want to know how you feel, cze that will only bring me more sadness. That "I see I see" reply is a total disastrous to me. I've had enough. Take care my friend..

2008-06-20T15:37:00.000+08:00

1. How long will you wait for someone you love?

- Until the other one appear.

2. What do you want to do now?

- I want to know what I did yesterday night.

3. If there is a miracle,what will you want?

- To return to the past.

4. Do you hate your friend sometimes?

- Definitely some.

5. Where do you wish to die?

- On the road.

6. Do you believe in seeing rainbow after rain?

- It's true. Isn't it?

7. What are the impossible things you wish to do?

- Get 10 points for O lvl. LOL

8. Is there something you wish that never happen?

- I think soooooo?

9. Are you happy with your life

- Nah!

10. What if your crush asked you out?

- He won't . Cze I asked him to go and die.

11. What will you do when you feel bored?

- Whistle~~ Lol. no la. Idk.

12. What kind of feelings do you hate most?

- Treated like a fool.

13. If you will be separated from your loved one(s) for quite a period of time, what will be some things you want to tell them?

- HEY! I will be back soon. Definitely I'll miss you. (:

14. What are you looking forward to in the coming weeks?

- Being busy? I don't want to think about anything else.

11 people to do it:
-You people wished to do, then do it. Don't wish to do. Don't do it. (:

Oh gosh. I swear I'll be a good girl from now on. I won't get this drunk anymore. Shitsx! Hangover is definitely a shit! It sucks like freaking hell. Headache, waking up in the midnight to vomit, vomit till my gastric juice came out, wobbly all over. Argh. I think I've weaken already. Cze usually I don't get this drunk so easily. Or maybe because of bad mood and empty stomach ? Idk. Nvm, I seriously don't know what happen last night. Cze I don't know why, I deleted all of my inbox and outbox message. -.-. Anyway, to say it in a nice way, they are there to accompany me drink. But to say it more clearly, I'm the one drinking and they are the ones accompanying me last night. Lol. Stupid Ckh keep winning , and his girl keep asking me to drink pure. -.- Lol.
Was like feeling damn unwell this morning. Slept at 1plus last night. Woke up at 4plus to vomit. & also , ah fook call me in the middle of the night. -.- Then I can't get back to sleep already. I wanted to use com, but the feeling of throwing up sucks. It makes me feel damn awful and really wobbly. Manage to get back to sleep at around 7am. Then was waken up by dad for breakfast at 10plus in the morning. But couldn't eat anything as I still feel like vomiting.
Ok. I don't know what to continue already. (:

Btw, just now I was browsing through my folder. I realize that TWT's photos occupies 1/3 of my folder. Lol. I didn't know that I can take so much photo of them . HAHA. Anyway, I don't think I'll be able to support them already. Sigh... Anyhow, I still wanna wished them good luck for today's match against Tagawa. 1, 2, 3. TONGWHYE! Get into top 6 alright! (: Press on! With much loves..♥♥♥

Ciaos!

2008-06-17T00:09:00.002+08:00

Thanks for making me so freaking hell upset.
All your acts are a success. (:

2008-06-16T01:56:00.001+08:00

I had a hunch that you already know the truth.
I'm a coward, seriously I am one.
I tried to tell you this today.
I even had sleepless night before today.
Just because I wanted to tell you and I can't!
Why is it that I always do things that make myself feel so tormented?
I feel that I'm a dumb to do all this.

Today, is the 15th of June.
The night before, I was so determined to look up for you to sort things out. Really, I was having great gusto at that time. But the moment I brought out my phone, finished texting, I couldn't bring myself to click on the button "send" . My god, I nearly cried out when I saw those disheartening things written on somewhere else/ said by someone else. Seriously, it brought down my spirit. I'm so afraid that I might really put my foot in it when I'm gonna confess everything. I don't want to mess it up. It's really hard to say out everything. Sigh...

Went out at around 5plus in the evening and headed to Pasir Panjang to celebrate Father's day. Dinner wasn't really good as I don't know what happen to the chef today, the food sucks! Lol. Maybe because it's Father's day today and yet he still have to work. LOL. Maybe.
Reached home at around 6plus, text Jen and asked if she wanna slack together. Met up at around 7plus. As I reached earlier, I alighted at Cyn's house nearby. Initially wanted to look up for her, but I didn't . Instead, I rang her up. Catch up a little and agreed to attend the BBQ this coming Friday. Then I walked to 851's bus stop and meet up with Jen. Then walked over to 847 basketball court and chit chatted. Around 9plus, we went off. She's going to pub whereas I walked home. Initially I wanted to take a cab home. But I forget that I don't have enough cash with me. Then I thought of taking a bus home, but it's too troublesome to transit between buses. So, I walked home instead.

On the way home, I thought about a lot of thing. The things we did , flash across my mind. The times we went out in a group, till the time I asked you out to accompany me eat lunch, until few months ago, we chatted for 2 hours at your place, and many more. I'm seriously afraid that our friendship will end after my impulse decision. I'm really afraid. Sweetie wanted me to sort things out with you. Anyway I waited for so long. That's what she told me. But I'm really scared! ): I'm a milksop!

I'm so looking forward to this Thursday's drinking session with Sweetie. I have so much to pour out to her. I guess this time I'll make myself real drunk. This period of time, all this thing are making me feel enervated...

P/s: I'm a little guilty to bluff my readers that I didn't update. That's why I put it private.
P/P/s: I'm really feeling dejected..

2008-06-14T02:35:00.001+08:00

Do you know how vital you are to me?
你知不知道我是用什么样的心情来做这些事情的？
你知不知道要把对你的话藏在心里是件多难的事吗？
你知不知道有很多次我都很想告诉你所有的事情？
Your sorrows, your happiness, your jealousy, your anger, are all equal to mine.
I'm really afraid of spilling the beans. Cze I don't want to end our friendship.
I have so much to say, I have so much to tell, but my courage always bring me down...

I have the world's greatest courage when dealing with my friend's problem. But why am I not having it when dealing with my own? I'm a total failure. A girl should not make the first step. It's my mindset.

I now suddenly very sad na.
Time now is 2:15AM, means now is 14th June?
Yesterday is Friday the 13th. Oh my. Did anyone feel unlucky today? Lol.
Oh anyway, was like chatting with some of my friend just now. They encouraged me to tell ** ley. But I can't plucked up my courage to do so. ): I really very scared sia. Die. ): The more I tell Sweetie, the more I wished that I can tell **. I know that you know about it already. But I wanted to tell you face to face, more clearer I mean. Or I should wait another 4years? LOL~ I think I'm dumb. Haha.

Forget it, talk about other stuffs now. Went to Aunt house at around 2plus in the noon today. Then manage to get out from there at around 6plus . Headed to JP to meet up with Yvonne and Nic. (((: Ate our dinner together. Then after that, roam around and headed to the playground opp WWSS to meet up with Sweetie and QQ. Been long since I last met them! Oh my god! I have tons and tons of thing that I want to tell Sweetie. Hope she can meet me next week. ^^ Also, my darling, Rainie Tan!

P/s: Even Yvonne Ho agreed that ahem is handsome! LOL~
P/P/s: Congrats to Teckloong kor! For his pop and his wedding. Last long with Angie! Sweet love~ ♥♥♥

2008-06-13T03:35:00.001+08:00

现在的我很害怕,真得很害怕..
害怕明天起来，你就会消失...
有一股冲动,想把所有的事情都告诉你..
但却害怕被拒绝,你会明白那种痛吗?
你表现得越自然,我就越害怕.
我不知道要用什么方式来让自己开心点..
因为没有了你,快乐离我好遥远...

Due to the dream I had yesterday, I only manage to sleep at around 9 plus in the morning. Then was waken up by Jen's msg at around 1 plus in the noon, asking me to blast Pz awake later on. Then I tell her I now very tired, I'll try to blast him later on. Then I went back to sleep. For only 5min, that stupid CKH called me. Lol. & he screamed at me saying, HUH?! YOU'RE STILL SLEEPING UH?! Lol. Ok la, not really scream. But a little louder then usual. Lol. xp

Then he asked me to meet up and so and so. I manage to wake up and prepare to meet him. So and so, went to meet up with Jo first, then to Kel's house . Stupid CKH very slow la, make us wait so long. Blah and blah , we walked to the Creative's company and explore, after which, we went to Chevron's karaoke. Blah and blah. They went off to Kembangan first, while I met up with my mommy and went to visit a monk. Blah and blah. I rushed down to the match after that. I heard the whistle blow off the moment I step into the field. I was like, having a bad omen already at that point, my heart thumps faster then usual. Then I sat down and started watching the match. So and so, the match ended. Indeed it is a tough one. Tongwhyetemple lose this time round. I wasn't disappointed at all about their performance today. What I'm sad about is the expressions I got from their face after the match. This is the first time I saw this scenario. I was fcukin damn sad about it. Shrug. Everyone are damn demoralized by the results today and all of them just lie down doing nothing, sat down there and staring into space. Almost all of them shows how dejected they are. The moment I see this , my heart totally sank.

Been so far with them, I really take their results seriously. I mean, be it winning or losing, it meant more to me then they do. I totally understand how dejected they are and the feeling of losing is a disaster! But although we lose, we lose it with pride. Unlike the opponent, they use lowdown tricks. Tripping people, intentionally hit people. All this are really despicable acts. We don't do that! Do we? We lost with pride . Right guys?!
Anyway, just wanted to say. TONGWHYETEMPLE! GO GO GO! Since everyone had advanced to the second round, let's do our best! Winning and losing are unavoidable in tournaments. The process then is the most important one! We learn from our mistake and never do it again in the next match. If you think that you've done your best, then don't feel discouraged about the outcome. Work harder alright?! Jiayou! We've gotten a 4th position last year. Let's work harder to strive for another 4th or even higher position alright?!! So what if you've lost in the first match? There's still few more match to go. Jiayou!! Press on!
1, 2, 3, TONGWHYE!

P/s: I brought an apple today.
P/P/s: I felt so useless unable to comfort you.

2008-06-12T06:22:00.003+08:00

I have sank too deep that I don't even know how to pull myself out from it. Understand?

I realized that I also look at guy's lip when I'm considering if they are handsome other then thick eyebrow and small eye. LOL! Ok, I just realize that only.

OH MY GOD! ALEX FROST IS HOT! ^^
Hey! It rhymes ehh! OH MY GOD! ALEX FROST IS HOT! OH MY GOD! ALEX FROST IS HOT! OH MY GOD! ALEX FROST IS HOT! OH MY GOD! ALEX FROST IS HOT! Lol. okok enough. ((:

I had a dream just now, it scares my wits out. ): I realized that I was crying when I woke up. I dreamt that Gpz kena bang by car right in front of me. Earlier in the evening, I met Jo. I told her that a moment ago I was like daydreaming. Then I dreamt of Gpz kena bang by car right in front of me. Then in the night, when I was sleeping, I dreamt of this once again! Fcuk! Then after that dream, I quickly message him and ask if he's alright. I really very scared.... & after that, I can't get into my sleep already. All the way until now. Fcuk. I wake up at around 1 plus in the midnight. Idiot la .
I keep thinking , and thinking and thinking.. I really very scared !
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): )): ))): !!!!!

Later meeting Jo again . I think so? Provided I don't fall asleep later, and she wake up early. Oh! I bought a watch on my own yesterday! Er, should say the day before yesterday I think? (:
Ok la, nothing to update about already. I update again when I've things to update about. (:
Adios!

2008-06-09T03:51:00.000+08:00

我突然间明白自己的地位了...

2008-06-09T02:14:00.004+08:00

There's a saying, "Yesterday is a history, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift. That's why it's called present. "

07June
Met up with Peg in the noon today for our lunch! Initially wanna meet up for breakfast, but I wake up late. ): Sorry my dear! Wake up at only 12plus in the noon. So I went preparing and met her at Jp at 2pm. Headed to Subway for our meal and roam around Jp. Went to Fujifilm to do something and headed off to Aunt's house. Cab there with peg. Sad to say, when I reached Aunt's house, no one was at home. Called and she asked me to go down to her work place first. As she'd forgotten to tell me that both lovelies went to granny's house. So, cab down to her work place. Afterwards, around evening, went to her house and stay over. My eyes are rather swollen as I survived whole night without specs and contact lenses. They got rather sensitive to the surrounding airs. I don't know why. (: Wake up the next day and did nothing but accompany both lovelies to fool around. Then headed back home to bathe and get my cardigan, then to Jp to meet up with the guys. (:

08 June
Back from the movie with Bran and Roy. Yes, Bran and Roy. No Josephine. Because she said she doesn't want to watch it today. But as I've already promised Bran and Roy that I'll watch with them today, still I went to meet them. Yesterday failed to meet up with them because I forget about the meet up! Also, Jo say she doesn't want to watch a midnight show. I managed to persuade them not to watch it yesterday on their own and watch it with me today. So I ended up watching with this two guy.
Roy is being a little weird today, he didn't spoke much eh. Instead, Bran was the one doing all the talking. Lol. But good thing is, he actually sort of "explain" my future for me. Lol. I mean he was like asking me about the courses and such, then he explained to me about the courses . From what he said to me, make me think that I must reconsider about my courses. Lol. TSK! He messed up my initial thought. Lol. But never mind, at least made me realize more stuffs. (: Then headed to boon lay market after that. He's craving for the nasi lemak. Yum. But sad to say, bro came early to fetch me. So I packed my food and went home with him. ^^
Oh btw, I watched Kungfu Panda today. ((: Nice show. Humorous indeed!

如果时间能够停止一切,那就停止所有我对你的感觉。。

2008-06-07T03:37:00.002+08:00

我的心差一点就烂掉了..
I almost went berserk.
Seriously, My heart thumps as fast as a Ferrari's engine.

2008-06-07T02:37:00.002+08:00

Just a second ago, I was bloghopping around. Many are discussing about the "2012 doomsday" thing. Out of curiosity, I went to Youtube and search for something like this. It says that many things are like a warning to us. For example, tsunami, new disease attack, szechuan's earthquake, etc.. It really kept me thinking about it. As all sorts of prophecies seems to imply that something is going to happen. From now till 2012, 4 years left. I really have no choice but to think it negatively.
Because from what I think, it's quite true. Even the ice in north pole or south pole (I don't know wherever it is) are like melting and floods are like over the world. Tsunami is a good example of it. Then there's this oracle that could foresee the future and predicted the world will be destroyed by fireballs or whatever it is called from the sky, earthquakes all around the earth, sky will turn black and whatsoever. The idea of thinking about doomsday, bring shivers down my spines.

I'm seriously really afraid of this type of thing . I didn't manage to finish up the video as it's like 44:50 min. The thought of doomsday is already terrifying enough, why would I be able to finish watching the even more horrifying video? I thought to myself, if really 2012 will be the doomsday, then what am I going to do in this 4 years? Continue doing things that I used to do everyday or fulfill the things that I wished to do for the past 17years? I've so many things that I've yet to do, I've so many things that I've yet to say, I've so many things that I've done and I've yet to say I've regretted, I've so many things that I wanna do to people to express the thoughts in my mind. ): Do I really have those time to think about my sadness or I've actually more then enough time to think about all my emotions? Sigh. Will by saying sigh, waste 1 second of my time? Or I can even take 1 min to just say a sigh? Will by typing this post waste a portion of my time or will it be just a nothing? Argh. Everything is bothering me! I really don't wanna sound so emo. But that's the fact!I don't want to die on the day doomsday happen. In fact, I'm afraid to see the Earth get destroyed. I wanted to just die like, in a accident, er, suddenly die in my sleep , or whatever that won't make me feel pain. LOL! I know it sounds foolish, or should I say dumb? But I'm really afraid of dying in the torture of pain. Haha!

Okok, I think I'm ending this post already before anything here I said turn out to be a fact. =x

2008-06-06T23:03:00.004+08:00

I'm feeling bored. I'm having aches all around. I'm feeling tired. I'm not able to sleep yet. I'm having insomnia. I'm not feeling good. I'm feeling sad.

Oh gawd. I hate it man!

A day at Aunt's house. One day nanny is fun but tiring. I think I'm going to Aunt house again tomorrow? She wanted me to, so I guessed I'm going to be tortured by that little imp again. Lol, but she brighten up my day. (: Bran just pranked call me. -.- He's irritating la, haha. Using Roy's phone to call and spoke mandarin to me. -.- So not used to it. I was like talking for already a few min with him, then I realized that it isn't Roy who's talking to me. How dumb. He asked if I wanna watch a midnight show tgt tomorrow . Agreed. So hope tomorrow won't suddenly cancel or what ba. Haas. ^^ Oh! & tomorrow morning will be eating breakfast with Peg! It's been long since we last met. Miisshsx yoooue shoo muchsxz.! Hope Nic will be going as well. (:

It's 11:10PM now. I'm off to catch my beauty sleep before it runs away. -.-
Ciaos!

2008-06-06T22:41:00.001+08:00

她让你憔悴许多
她让你不知所措
她的一举一动你不停的对我说
我微笑倾听你说
我却越听越心痛
怎么你说的不是我
她比我多了什么
让你愿意耐心等候
我想知道她让你痴心是什么
我想知道她让你疯狂为什么
我知道做的和她没有不同
但是我却不在你的心中逗留
我想知道她哪里比我好很多
在你心中她和我有什么不同
我知道我比她付出的还多
可是我总换不了你的心动
你让我憔悴很多
你让我不知所措
你一举一动我的心被牵着走
她不经意的走过
你就把我给冷落
嫉妒把我给吞没
她比我多了什么
让你愿意耐心等候
我想知道她让你痴心是什么
我想知道她让你疯狂为什么
我知道做的和她没有不同
但是我却不在你的心中逗留
我想知道她哪里比我好很多
在你心中她和我有什么不同
我知道我比她付出的还多
可是我总换不了你的心动
我知道了她哪里比我好更多
在你心中我永远不可能会让你心动
我知道我比她付出的还多
可是我在你心中没有她多

2008-06-06T01:05:00.002+08:00

那种谎言被搓破的感觉真的很难受.....
):

Oh my god. My mum just told me the reason of my pimple evolve is due to late night sleep oh? Shitxz! Lol. Never mind anyway I'll try to sleep as early as possible every night from now on. (:
Currently is 12:55am. I'm going to sleep at 1:30! Lol. Hope so la.

Today went out with Jialing. (: Accompany her to hunt for jobs. Went to Vivo, then to Marina Square then to Suntec. After that headed to Aunt house. ^^ Saw both my precious! Oh my god. They are damn cute ok! That sweet lil girl went for a haircut few days ago and her mum asked for a bob hairstyle. Lol. Damn cute la! I'll upload more when I came back home tomorrow. As I'm gonna be a one-day-nanny tomorrow! ((: I'll snap snap snap a whole bunch of photos tomorrow! Lol. Oh ya, Just now went to Aunt house and took several videos of that sweet lil girl. Shall upload tomorrow. ^^ Damn cute la. Hahas. Ok, think I'll update till here? Shall continue with more details tomorrow . Hees.

P/s: I can't wait to meet Rainie beloved!
P/P/s: WJL is loved!
P/P/P/s: Baby didi is simply too adorable to be loved. Lol.
P/P/P/P/s: I randomly saw someone today! My gawd~~

2008-06-03T07:39:00.001+08:00

Immature love says: 'I love you because I need you.'
Mature love says 'I need you because I love you.'

I wanna go cruise this end of year. Kit, let's change plan alright? Don't go HK already. We go cruise uh? ((: Anyone? Wanna join? :D
Nothing much to update about ehs. I'm very bored right now. The time now is 7:36AM and I've yet to catch a wink of sleep! I wanted to sleep at 12AM last night, but I kept tossing around in the bed. So I came online. But when I'm feeling a little tired at around 4AM, I remember me promising Jo to meet up with her for breakfast later at around 10AM. So, I kept myself awake in order not to be late or even not turning up. Lol. )): I wanna sleep!!! Later after meeting Jo, I swear I'll come back home and lie flat on my cosy bed.
I wanted to upload photo, but I'm very lazy to. Cze I've got hundreds of photos to upload, and I really mean hundreds alright! TWT's first, second and third match's photos.. Outing photos. OMG! I've got real loads of photos to upload la. ): But I can't make it at one go. Sigh! Wait for my photos alright!! (: Let you guys have a glimpse of some photos first. (:

JEN! This is a gift from me to you. *wink wink . (:

I stop here because I think I really have to stop before I really post out all and it will used up a lot of my time. Lol. :D
Before I end this post I wanna add something. Lol.
That day go to Pz match , I say to Ah fook, Don't worry. I'm here, you won't get lost.
Then he say to me, Don't be afraid . I'm here to protect you. LOL!
He keep repeating this the whole night. Hahas.
Ok, main point of saying this is to say Ah fook very cute/funny! Lol. :D

2008-06-02T04:58:00.000+08:00

如果你觉得这样对我,我会很难过,那恭喜你，你成功了。
I've sorted out my thoughts. Indeed I should look forward instead of staying at the same position waiting for something that would never be mine.

Went to the match today. Today's match is a damn exciting one. A pleasant match turn out to be nasty at the last 6min. Due to other team's low level of sportsmanship, they resort into violence as the scores are 20-30 marks difference. It's totally a shame of themselves to do this despicable action. Both Jen and I are like so angry and was furiously hot. I kept telling Jen that I'm afraid, seriously very scared. My heart was thumping like the way I-don't-know-how-many-horses-would-gallop-together. Lol. Then she asked me, what are you afraid of? Afraid of them losing or them getting hurt? I said, Of course is them getting hurt la! As from my point of view, I was thinking that so what if we lose? We can still advance into second round. What matters is them not getting hurt! Oh my fcuking god! The other team are like using lowdown actions to win the match . Even their captain, use his leg to trip one of our teammate! Fcuk you! You're a captain yet you're doing this small little act! _|_ you! Sorry for being crude, but that's the only way to vent my anger. ((:
Then I remembered that no. 9 and no. 13 of ours are like teaming up to tackle the opponent. Lol. That's because the two of them are quite strong in our team and the opponent seems to have eyed on them. Tripping, using elbow to hit them , and even pushing the two of them! That's like fcuk! Good thing is that, our coach is like so angry and scolded the referee! & that gives us the opportunity to earn fouls. (: Luckily at the ending of the game, they was like playing passing game to drag the time. HEHE. And so, the last whistle blew! Yea! We won once again! But with several injured teammates. ): Hope they are ok. During the match, I was like asking almost everyone of the teammate whether they are ok or not? Are they injured? Then it was turn for Yk to play, then I tell him. You be careful ok. His answer was I will be ok one. Don't worry. Then I say erm, Just be careful la. Lol. Then when he came back I asked him. Are you ok? Did you injured yourself? Anywhere that you feel pain? His reply is only a smile and say I'm alright. ((: LOL~
Ok. Then I asked Pz, are you ok? Did you injured yourself? Pz's reply is, No, I did not injured myself. Oh! But they just zham my lam pa. Very pain. -.- Please la Gpz . Can you be more civilized? I mean to talk in a more civilized way. Lol. Then when it's time for them to shake hand, no.4, no. 9 and no.13 was like don't even give a damn to the opponent's no.7(the captain) Lol.Ok , anyway the match is over. Fixtures for the next round will only be out at around 8th of June or later? I think so. After the match, train back to Jurong. Slacked at 8head with Pz , ah fook and Jen for awhile then I cab home.

2008-05-31T18:33:00.000+08:00

I'm here to blog about yesterday. Because I'm quite lazy, I didn't updated this morning. Ok, I said this morning as I managed to reach home only at around 5am in the morning. Then get to sleep only at around 8.30 this morning. Spend my whole night with Jen , Seng and Pz. Watched Pz's match with Jen at around 8.30 till around 10pm. Another victory for TWT! After that, headed back to Jurong. Initially wanted to go back home already. But suddenly thought of Ckh. So called him and agreed in watching a midnight show with him and his girl. Then accompany Pz home to change and washed up . Was chilling at his house's void deck and saw Roy. Then Kel's mum happen to bypass as well. Chit chatted for a little and Seng reached. After Kel's mum left, Pz's finally done! So we cab down to Jp. Coincidentally, saw Wkh and Lyk and co. Headed to the cinema after that. We watched Narnia! It's quite a nice show I should say. ((: Watched till around 3:10 in the midnight. Then chilled outside 7-eleven till around 4plus. While Ckh and his girl left not long after the show. Then cab home with Jen. While Pz and Seng walked home.

Last night, I thought about a lot of things. How long will this situation last? Is it time for you to look forward already? Louise Lee! How much more longer do you want to stay in this situation? Wake up!

2008-05-31T08:14:00.000+08:00

Have you ever wondered why and what's making me so persistence on some stuffs?
Have you ever wondered why have I not given up on you before?
Have you ever wondered why do I get so worked up when you're in trouble?
Have you ever wondered why am I still contacting you after a long period of not meeting ups?
Have you ever wondered who will be the one worrying about you?
Have you ever wondered how important you are to someone?
Have you ever wondered how much have you hurt someone unintentionally?
Have you ever wondered the littlest thing you do could meant so much to someone?
Have you ever wondered one little sentence from you could meant the whole world to someone?
Have you ever wondered how foolish one could be because of you?
Have you ever wondered there's always someone feeling double blow then you do?
Have you ever wondered there's someone out that took your life more important then its?
Have you ever wondered how, why, who and what's the thing that you should wonder about?

If you could open your eyes and look around your surroundings, there's actually even more then what you're seeing right now....

2008-05-30T00:46:00.001+08:00

The pain of missing him, no matter the geographical distance,
time distance or emotional distance.
because you really need to feel him beside you to fill the loneliness,
yet at the moment in time, it is impossible.

I'm feeling a little down right now. I don't know why ley. Frigging hell. My heart seems to be sinking. But the problem is I don't know what's the reason eh! Fart! Whatever, recently have been sleeping till quite late and slept for very long hours . Lol. Cze I'm just too lazy to even drag myself out of that comfy blanket. HEHE :D Hmm today wake up at only 2 plus in the noon. Then had my brunch and was idling away, then Kit called. Chit chatted for awhile and decided to go over to her house and study. As she says she got notes for me. ((: Thanks sweet. Then she complained that she's hungry so I packed food for her. How nice I am right? Tyvm.
Reached her house and started off using the com while she's eating. Lol. Then she became more and more engrossed in online shopping and so, we didn't study a tiny weeny bit at all. Lol. But at least she told me what is exothermic and endothermic. She says that because endothermic has the en at the front which sounds a little like enter, so endothermic is energy taken in when don't know what ever thing is going on. & exothermic is heat given out as exothermic's ex sounds like exit , and so it's heat given out. Lol. Ok. Shall not bore you guys with CHEMISTRY~ Lol.
Then everything goes on quite well until her sissy came back. Which totally change the atmosphere. Feeling kinda weird la. So I decided to leave at around 7plus. Sigh. It's been quite some time since I reached home so early already. Lol. I'm a good girl I know. Tyvm . LOL~ K la. Nothing much to blog about already. Tomorrow still got TWT's match . Tomorrow is TWT versus Payar lebar. This time we will win! ((: Good luck guys~ I got faith in you. Lol. That's what I keep saying last year HEHE! :D

Ok bye. It's 12:55am now, off to watch my show already! Nights!
Adios~

2008-05-29T02:27:00.001+08:00

If only that night at that party, I could tell you everything....

Went out with Jialing and Jacq just now. Headed to Bugis for our dinner cum accompany Jialing for eyebrow piercing. (: She's very cute la! So small size, plus when she was going to pierce, she squeezed my hand. Lol. Cze she's a little afraid and nervous. Lol. Then headed to LJS for our dinner. Chilled for awhile and keep snapping and snapping and snapping. (((: My dear girl! Come here and grab your pics alright? Cze my msn went a little hay-wired. Then cannot send you. )): Sorry! ((: & meet up again alright?? Love ya~
Hey girl, Sorry that I post only 1 pic I took with you. Cze I find that I'm fugly in them. Lol. So here's the photo of yours and Jacq. ((: Next time take nicer one ok. Haas. Today bad hair day... ):

On a separate note, If Singapore is gonna hold a thick-skinned competition, I will vote for you and I'm sure you'll be the champion. Cheap!

Hey I've one video to upload! This baby is damn cute! FYI he's my baby cousin. hehes. :D

2008-05-28T15:39:00.003+08:00

Hey people, I'm here to tell you I'm not working anymore.
Just to say here so that no one ask me "you never go work mehs?" again.
HEHE :D
Anyway, I'm going out soon . Shall update again. ((:

2008-05-27T05:45:00.007+08:00

Went to TWT's match just now. Damn happy la! Cze TWT won! ((: Nice one man~ Was getting a little over excited just now. Lol. Hmm, after the match we stayed there for awhile to wait for Pz to chill down first. While waiting, I saw a guy that was watching the match at one side, his eyes is small, and he cuts mallot. Very cute la~ LOL~ Payar Lebar's supporter.. -.- TWT next opponent will be Payar Lebar. Hahas.

After that went to Cine and dine in at HK cafe. Jen and I was like crazy, keep taking photo . Haha. The two guy is our model of the day! LOL~ Just joking. After which, we cab down to Gp and slack. Met up with Zixian and co. Wait for Bro to come and fetch me and here I am! It's actually 5:39AM now. I didn't catch my beauty sleep as I have to go to work later. Sigh!! I wanted to tell Wz that I don't feel like working today, but I know he will angry. So , I force myself to stay awake . Tsk. Another 15 more min and I'll be going to prepare. Meeting him at around 6:30??
Argh! I'm so tired! My eyelids weigh 100 tonnes now.. -,-I think you know. I think you really really know. You're doing this purposely. You're not letting me work. That's why you ask S to lie to me that you guys lost your job. You're making me feel damn shag. Damn sad. Damn moodless. Why am I still clinging on to you? I seriously don't know why. ):

2008-05-27T03:19:00.001+08:00

Hey people! Here's the time for you people to grab pictures!!
Sorry people as I'm lazy, the pictures are uploaded a little untidy. Bear with it alright. Just grab those you want hehe! (: & rotate anyhow you want LOL~
ENJOY!
To grab, right click and click on view image.
From there, right click again and click on save image. ((:
LOL~

That's Pz teaching Jacq how to shuffle..

KCS only know how to play PSP!

Guo hao teaching Jacq shuffle.

Jacq's unglam photo part 2! LOL~

That day at Terra Cafe.

My cute/naughty cousin!

That day went picnic with her and her family.

My cute cousin!! 经典的表情 :D

超可爱！谁受得了？！

KH's Birthday.

Vien's face so dulan, like want beat people liddat cze...

Stupid Ckh block the Cam.

Alright. One nice one. (:

KCS act emo.

This cute dog wears shoe. Looks like a lamb. LOL.

Ah Roy's retard face in action!

Freddy the spiderman.. Lol.

Everyone is engrossed in watching 周日八点党 from Wz's phone. Lol.

Decent Ah roy and me. (:

He's singing 火柴天堂. Lol.

He's saying no, Don't take . But I thought he wave to me. Lol~!

Like heaven.. -.-

Tan neh neh!

The victims from smashed cake. Lol.
Victim no. 1 :VIVIENHANG

Victim no. 2: JACQUELINEGOH

Victim no.3: CHEWKAHHAO

Trying to act one friendly, take a decent photo before he's dead! Lol.

The two of them having debate/argument on sichuan earthquake. Trying to suan siao each other. LOL~

Woah. The couple! (:

Look at WZ. Lol.

Cut cake time! (:

Look at Wz's retard face. -.- Lol.

Gossipers...

Tam chiak ah peh.

Ah seng and me! (:

In my bro's van, on the way back.

ChuaQi! (:

The following pics are taken by Roy. -.-

That's all people! Shall upload more when I'm free alright?! ((:

2008-05-26T00:15:00.004+08:00

Hey People!
I've decided to use my lappy only on weekends! As, I don't think I've the time to do so as I'm gonna start work on Tuesday . Work starts at 8.30 in the morning and ends at 5.45 in the noon. The rest of the time I'll use it for self-studies as I don't have the time to attend remedial I guessed? Unless otherwise, I take off days from my agent. Sigh. Yvonne reprimanded me for not going school and says that How is people gonna motivate me to study when me myself ain't going school. )): Ok la, I know it's true. But I really have to make decisions between money and studies. Currently, I think if I'm able to study (& make a promise to myself that I'll study) on my own, money will be my second choice!

So, working all out is what I'm gonna do this holiday! $50 per day, I think is way too little compared to my previous job. But I guessed it's gonna be a more easier one? Hope so. Calculation for my monthly pay this holiday!
1 day = $50.
1 week = $250? (Mon-Fri)
1 Month = $1000? (I'm not sure if I'm able to do it for everyday )
Plus , there will be OT till 10 pm maybe everyday.
1 day OT= Approx. $25 ?? ( I have no idea how much will OT be )
1 week OT = Approx. $125???
1 Month OT =Approx. $500???
Holiday's pay = $1500 ?? ( I guessed?? )

Cutting out from my off days, I guessed I'll get approx. $1000-$1200 the least. That's my guess only . Hope I'll get more than that? Because for me, other then the days I'm going to Pz's match, I'll be doing OT for like everyday I guess. Maybe I'll cut some days if not I think I'll wear out in 2 weeks time. Ha!

Alright. I'll upload two more post maybe later or tomorrow and I'll stop till the weekend. (:
Shall end off with this entertaining webby. I think so? Lol. CLICK!
Adios~

2008-05-24T00:50:00.000+08:00

爱情不是三言两语就可以说得清
有时一个眼神就能看透真心
虽然你也可以选择逃避或置之不理
但你知道的我还是会等你
Although people scold me,
says that I'm wasting my time,
I'll still do it.
For no reason,
just that it's too deep.

Went out with sweet just now to vivo. Dine in at Terra Cafe. Omg! The tiramisu is fab! Finger-licking-good! hahas. Omg~ I love tiramisu la. ):! I want to get it again , maybe tomorrow? Lol. From cake shop I mean. hahas. Well, time now is 12:40 PM. Means, it's 24th May! HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHEW KAH HAO!! A very good friend indeed. (:
Shall upload another post specially dedicated to you! Hehes. Hope you will see it ya? ((: Hmms, I'm feeling a little tired now. Better catch my beauty sleep soon, if not it will run away and turn ugly. -.- Lol. Ok. Nights reader!

P/s: Rainie Tan! I'm missing you right now! Meet up soon!
P/P/s: Jen! Our HK Cafe!! Faster!!!
P/P/s: Nicolebelle chan chan chant , meet me !! I'm missing you real bad!! ): 想死你了啦!
P/P/P/s: Monday faster come!! (:
P/P/P/P/s: Holiday is LOVED!
P/P/P/P/P/s: I'm sick!! I hate sore throat!! I have difficulty to even swallow my SALIVA! _|_
P/P/P/P/P/P/s: I have a lot of P/s to say! haha.

On a separate note, Had a little chat with bro just now. Well, Dreams. Everyone does have one. But will they be able to fulfill it? After the chats, I thought to myself. What is my dream? It's time to plan for your future! You're way back behind others! Oh my, this feeling suck!!

2008-05-24T00:00:00.000+08:00

Hey people! I'm here to upload some of JACQUELINE GOH's UNGLAM PHOTO!
AS REQUESTED BY HER! HAHAHAHA.
ALRIGHT. SHALL START..
PHOTOS AIN'T IN ORDER. AS I'M LAZY TO . (:

2008-05-23T03:48:00.001+08:00

就算辛苦,也要把你忘记. 要把你从记忆中抹去...

Life hasn't been good for me nowadays. Sigh.. I really think that I'm a failure in everything! Argh. Met up with Ah bean, sweetiie and Jacq for lunch today at Lot 1. Had porridge for my lunch as I ain't feeling well. Sore throat been torturing me recently. ): Had difficulty swallowing those food. Been rather moody due to the sickness as well. Aftermath , we roam around Lot 1 and I went to do something at Kodak. Then, 172-ed to Jp with Jacq. On the way back, received a text from Pz. Asking me if I wanna go down for his match today. So I agreed as I really wanted to go. Drag my dear girl along. (: Thanks sweet for the companion.

30-ed down to Granny's house to leave my laptop there as it's really very heavy. Then, 30-ed back to Jp and get my stuffs down. Train down to JE and meet my sweet. Then wait together for Pz and co. Then train down all the way to Aljunied. Reached and found out that there's still ample time before the match start. So we went over to the foodcourt to have our dinner. As I'm having bad sore throat, I didn't . Then after the meal, I quickly ran to a fruit stall and get an apple for Pz, but sweet says that she wants one too. So I bought two. (: The fruit staller is damn polite and cheerful? Lol. (: Match was a thumbs up! It's kinda exciting to me, as I was cheering and jeering at the same time. Laughs. Seng was talking to me about something, which keeps me thinking for an idle moment. I thought to myself why care so much now ,when in the past I don't even give a damn about it. Then when he says that to me, I felt a little weird down there. ):

Forget it. Bro then drive down to Aljunied and fetch me home. (: On the way to meet my bro, Pz was like saying, your bro drive very fast right? Then I say, ya. He drives only 10-15min from Pasir Ris to Jp. Then he say, Ok. I'm gonna break his record. During chalet, I'm gonna do it. Then I was like, HEY! ARE YOU COURTING DEATH?! Then I was like, beating and hitting him. Lol. Then Gh jump into our conversation and say ya lor. How can you drive without license blah and blah. Lol. OH YA! I wanted to tell you people that Gh is so cartoon/ cute / funny. (: Whilst waiting, they are playing and teaching sweet how to shuffle. Laughs. As sweet did it clumsily, everyone was laughing hard at her stun. Lol. How cute! (:

Finally bro reached. After sending sweet home, bro started talking to me about some serious matter. Seriously, I'm feeling vexed over it. I don't seems to be able to voice out my sorrows. That's why bottling up is what I'm doing. All the sad/委屈 /angry's feeling , I'm unable to voice it out when facing both of them. Argh. I so wanted to defend ** and say that it's me the one who's in the wrong, but whenever the words reach my mouth, it turned shut. I'm unable to say it all out and just let the truth be hidden. Why am I so useless? Sigh....

P/s: I'll upload the photo on the next post alright. (:
P/P/s: JACQUELINE GOH! PLEASE BE PATIENT TO SEE YOUR UNGLAM PICTURES!

2008-05-22T00:22:00.001+08:00

I think I'm falling sick soon.
Headache, sore throat, a little hot on my forehead, ulcer is killing me. ):

Had a great day out with my dear Kit. Lol~
Met her at around 5plus in the noon at Westmall. I reached before her and I quickly went to the cake shop and get a slice of cake for her. As 20th of May is her birthday! (: Happy birthday my dear~ Alright. Headed to Mayim after her arrival and had our late lunch there. The food there totally sucks . The 奶茶taste just like plain water. x( Don't ever dine in at Mayim! Not nice one. Lol. Then was like roaming around the mall and went to play datona with that girl for one round. Then went to get her stuffs for her friend. Then cab home with her. She was like saying to me. You treated me like this on my birthday. Then I will die on your birthday lehs. Lol. It's alright my dear. It's the thoughts that counts. ^^ Shall meet up with her again real soon. Never ending chats with her around. ((:

When I was in the cab just now, I bypass the road that I used to visit you. It was so much of a memories..

2008-05-20T22:22:00.000+08:00

If I could turn back time, I want to tell you yes when you asked me that question that night...
有时候自己觉得对的事情,往往都会是错的...

A moment ago, something made me realize about death. I'm very afraid of anything that may happen at any time. I think I've made up my mind....
I'm really afraid that anything might suddenly happen out of the sudden. Especially when I know what situation you're in and doing. Sigh..

2008 is seriously the most atrocious year I ever had. Many things happened. Be it natural disasters, or minor things happen to me. Anyhow, I hope that 2008 will pass soon. For godsake, I had had enough of it.
I never had this feeling before, but currently, I'm undergoing something I never had before. Why? I find it rather hectic for all this hiding and such. But I never dared to face it on my own. I admit that I'm timid. But so? I'm able to face the fact that I'm timid.
Facing lots of setbacks, I need help cze I'm worn out. It's overmuch for me. Seriously, I think I had phobia . Phobia for going school. Teacher told me that my attendance failed for this term. Sigh. I know for myself that I need to attend school frequently, but I just couldn't bring myself to school .
Can someone motivate me to school?

I have decided! Before the year end, I will do something that I have been wanting to do for 4 years yet I never attempt to do it. I don't wanna end my 2008 with regret. As I think that 2008 has been a real bad year for me. I wanna end it with a beautiful attempt. (:

2008-05-19T23:47:00.004+08:00

I took you into my confidence , and yet...
When I say half full, does it mean it's half empty as well?

I happen to see this at someone's blog.
So I decided to post it. (:
ENJOY!

A housewife takes a lover home during the day, while her husband is at work.
Unbeknown to her, her 9 year old son was hiding in the closet.
Her husband came home unexpectedly, so she hid her lover in the closet.

The boy now has a company.

Boy: "Dark in here."
Man: "Yes it is."
Boy: "I have a baseball."
Man: "That's nice."
Boy: "Want to buy it?"
Man: "No, thanks."
Boy: "My dad's outside.
Man: "OK, how much?"
Boy: "$250."

In the next few weeks, it happened again that the boy and the lover are in the closet together.

Boy: "Dark in here."
Man: "Yes, it is."
Boy: "I have a baseball glove."
Man: "How much?"
Boy: "$750."
Man: "Fine."

Few days later, the father says to the boy,
"Grab your gloves. Let's go outside and toss the baseball."

The boy says, "I can't. I sold them."
The father asks, "How much did you sell them for?"
The son says, "$1,000."
The father says, "That's terrible to overcharge your friends like that. It's way more than the actual cost! I'm going to take you to church and make you confess."

They go to church and the father alerts the priest, and makes the little boy sit in the confession booth.

The boy says, "Dark in here."
The priest says, "Don't start that shit again!"

2008-05-18T02:26:00.002+08:00

Hey! Who want buy this Mp3 hor tell me ok. Latest by monday.
1gb $69
2gb $89
4gb $150
Colours available: white, silver, blue , pink , black , red

2008-05-17T17:15:00.003+08:00

http://www.peta.org/feat/ChineseFurFarms/index.asp

I saw this link at Estee Lim's blog just now. It's gross ! It's damn gross! My god! I nearly cried out out when I was watching the video. Damn! Why in the world do this type of business goes on?! Fcuk! Sorry for being crude here. But I really cannot stand it la. The animals are like, alive and crying for their lives and they are SKINNED ALIVE! WTF!!! ):!! I pray that god will punish them asap! It's ridiculous! Argh. ): I feel like crying now . Cannot stand it la. ):!!!!!!!!!!
hurhur..

2008-05-15T01:09:00.002+08:00

I feel that it's time for me to update my blog already. As I think that it's rotting. Ha! & today Jacq scold me and say open blog for what?! Close it La! Since you also never update. )):
So fierce.

Shall not update about the past few days as I'm lazy to. So, start with today alright!
Tell you something awesome! I slept for 18hours! HAHA! Please call me super sleeper. LOL~ Tell you the reason, I didn't catch a wink of sleep the day before and so I felt damn tired when I reached home yesterday. Fall asleep at 4plus in the noon and woke up in the midnight 3AM. Replied several message and went back to sleep again. Woke up only at 10plus in the morning by Jacq's message. Laughs. Wow, was amazed by myself either. I can actually sleep for such a long period of time. Haha~ Tell you something, because I slept for this long, I was so hungry that when I wake up, I was searching high and low for food in the kitchen. Lol! Went preparing and off I went to meet that girl. Headed to her house & waited for her to prepare, and we went to Lot 1 to get her stuff. But sad to say, she didn't as the thing she want, will only restock a few days later. Then headed to Pioneer mall next. Get my bro's psp done and headed to Kel's house. Chit chatted with her mum a little and FINALLY I decided what to call her mum. haha! ^^y
Was idling away whilst waiting for Jacq finished her facial. Took quite a lot of unglam photos of hers. Shall post it soon. HAHA~ Initially wanna study with Kel together at his house , but he said he got tuition. So, some other day will do. (: Was texting Pz and asked if he wanna had dinner together. Agreed! So, headed to GP and meet up. While awaiting for his arrival, Jacq was doing quite a number of stuns. -.- Damn unglam la! Then I say to her, My god. You're behaving very unglamly(if there's a word like this) and she say. My true self surface, when there's trust. Lol. & because of this sentence, I have nothing to say. Lol. Stupid girl ha!
Oh ya! Jacq saw a JJC guy that she go "OH MY GOD! SHUAI GE SHUAI GE! " But to me, will meh? Lol. Then while we're lining up behind him, she was like getting some sort of over-excited. Then suddenly a girl walked to the side of that guy, I look at Jacq and I laugh like mad la! Lol~ Then the guy put the hand on the shoulder, Jacq give this face. <:( Then the guy hold the girl's hand , Jacq give the face <:((((((((((((((((((((((( LOL~~~~~~ I was laughing like mad alright. You all won't know how funny it is la! Ha~
Okok, Then went up to Mac and wait for Pz and Josephine, Finally Jo arrived! OH MY GOD!! I MISS JOSEPHINE DAMN MUCH LA!!!!! ^^ Then chit chatted a little, then Pz and co arrived. I saw AH FOOK LA! Miss him~ Haas. Cze I used to say hi and wave to him every morning when I reached school , but sad to say. He's having home suspension... ): Never mind. So, had our meal and Pz was like telling us something about somebody. Hmms, nothing to say? After which, went to arcade and bit goodbye to them and saw Ah Seng before going home. Chit chatted a little and left. Oh ! Something happened today that make Jacq a very good girl today by following my orders without any 怨言. HAHA~
Jacq, you know I know uh. *wink LOL~
Reached home and using com right now. (:
I have a lot of photos to upload. But am very lazy to do so. Other day alright? HEHE! :D

On a separate note, I received a call from Ah Seng just now. He told me something and ask me to think over it and make a decision soon. Actually to tell you(AH SENG) the truth, I had already thought about it few days ago. & I had the decision already. But because of me 爱面子, I never say nor do anything. Like what I tell you over the phone just now, if only ** make the first move, then I'll do something. Seriously, I felt that 3years friendship ain't so easily broke off. When I heard the news, I so wanted to go and comfort ** . But I can't bring myself to make the first move. Understand me alright? (:

Oh ya, This few days have been watching a show call 樱野3+1. The show quite nice. (:
& out of a sudden, I'm very afraid of death. I'm even more afraid that 某人 will die out of a sudden.. ))):!!!!!!!!!!

2008-05-10T00:00:00.001+08:00

Hey people, I know how to solve the scheduled thing already.
Step 1: Go to your settings.
Step 2: Go to formatting.
Step 3: Go to Time zone.
Step 4: Change to (GMT+08:00)Singapore
Step 5: Save settings.

TADA! You're done! Now you can edit the timing to the time you finished typing. (:
Don't tell me if you already know. My skin very thin, later you say you know I pai seh. Lol~

2008-05-09T03:26:00.002+08:00

Searching for the answer to the question mark in my heart..

难道我就这样过我的一生
我的吻注定吻不到最爱的人
为你等从一开始盼到现在
也同样落的不可能

Every time before I came blogging, I have a lot to say. But once I touch the keyboard, all the things in my mind went hiding. It totally went blank . I don't know why either.
Had been locking myself from the outside world this few days. Hiding at granny's house is a very good idea. (:
The scenery is fabulous!

She walked too fast. =x

The bread is nice... (:

This bottle of still water is damn ex. (:

The alaska crab blah blah blah.. Yum!

Look at how engrossed she is in eating her Roasted SpatchCock. Lol.

Alright. Haven't been wanting to go to school nor go out with friends these few days. Been stuffing myself with books and chats with granny. I find life been rather bored, time to get some refreshments! It's 3:06AM now. & yet I'm still wide awake. Many people has been asking me why never go school and all, sigh. I don't know the reason either. Actually every morning I can wake up, but my body just pulled me down from getting up to washed up. Sigh, I guessed I really have no interest for everything. Everything are going so wrong in my life. I don't know why. Whilst I'm typing this, I had a sudden urge for crying. I don't know why also.
Lols, (: , haha, hehe , are never left out in my messages to friends. But when I'm typing those words, I guessed I ain't really feeling this way? & I guessed many people don't feel this way either when they are typing those words. Right? Those are some assuring words to others letting them know that you are fine, you are happy, you are feeling ok. But why must we always assure people and not letting people know that deep down we are feeling, sigh, ): , not happy.
Contradicting.

I don't know why am I typing all this shits here la. It must be due to lack of sleep that I'm off my head for doing all this. It's gonna be dawn soon. I really have no idea to go school or not. It's the last day of the week, and next week's gonna be an intensive week for POA, whilst others are having intensive MT. I've got back my Maths result. I'm super uber disappointed in it. I never fail my maths before, but I failed this time. Argh! Now, I'm afraid of getting back SS and English. Or you can say , I'm afraid of getting any results right now. Thus, I didn't attend the English oral the other day, and also the geog paper. I remember Ah Pa calling me to ask me go back school to attend the EL oral. But I didn't do so, instead I hid myself at home. I'd rather people say that I'm lazy or what, I just don't wanna admit that I'm afraid. Sigh.. That's the first and ever time that I'm feeling this way. I don't know why and what's happening to me . I'm going insane soon.

Mummy has been real good to me recently. I've got everything I wanted but I've no sense of happiness in it. Why? I've got a new phone once again. K850i. My air con which I've been complaining it's more like a heater, had been fixed. Everything is with me. But I'm not feeling happy. Argh. It's in a mess. Sigh..
I want a long break. I want a silence and long break. Can I? ):

Time:3:26AM

2008-05-07T16:36:00.000+08:00

I'm here to say that I'm not dead yet. (:
Shall update more when I'm free. ^^
OH! BRO IS BACK!! ((:

Time: 1:59PM

2008-05-04T22:01:00.000+08:00

No one can see the pain that we hide,
They're happy for us to keep it inside,
Our fear is our own; they don't want to know,
Why should we involve them; why should it show.

You live your whole life in confusion and fear,
The need to feel something unbearably near,
Half of you living, Half of you gone,
And inside you know what your doing is wrong.

The thing's that can help, the thing's that may heal,
Are the flame or the blade and the sting of the steel,
The destruction of skin means the death of your soul,
But there's nowhere to run when your living alone.

Time:10:10PM

2008-05-04T18:53:00.000+08:00

Annihilating all sorts of feelings.. Trying hard to be happy...

I'm back from granny's house. Nothing much was done there , only that I keep thinking about something. I guessed my sixth sense is right. Sorry that I've done anything to you and I've to say if I really did anything, it's unintentionally done. I also don't know why must I be so bothered about your feelings and the way you treat me as I've said it in my previous post, we once quarreled, and ain't that close till we go out everyday that type. Seriously, feeling kinda contradict with myself. Sigh. If you think it's just a small matter between me and her, then I think you're wrong. Just wanna tell you that, if you never had this feeling before, then you don't anyhow interpret or think about me alright. Only when you have this type of feeling, you will then find that it isn't a small thing . I don't know what the fcuking hell she told you, but I wanna say, if you haven't hear it from me, Don't 随意的下定论. Tyvm.

Argh, this person had messed up my life. I hate it.. _|_

Time:10:00PM

2008-05-04T14:54:00.000+08:00

I'm going to study now.
Sigh, I'm going alone.. Sigh..
LOL~ No la, Not trying to step one emo.
But just that I feel like studying alone now.
But don't mind if anyone wanna join me. LOL!
Call me if you wanna join alright. ^^
BYE!

Time:2:58PM

2008-05-04T00:27:00.000+08:00

Mood: Down down down down down....
Song playing: 擦肩而过

Mood hasn't been good this few days.
I felt something from someone. I don't know why I care so much because we once quarreled and we ain't that close till we go out together everyday. But I really can sense something that's going very wrong in between us, I don't if it's me being paranoid or what. But my sixth sense never deceive my feelings before. I just don't wish to accept this fact alright. If the person know that I'm referring to you, don't tag at my tagboard can? Talk to me on phone/sms/msn. Cze I wanna keep it private. I don't know why either. Sigh...

Yesterday was Ahpa's sis birthday BBQ. Went to teban in the noon to meet up and helped out. Not very tiring as most of my job that I've done are done whilst sitting. Prepare and all and managed to set off at around 6pm . Hailed a cab and down to West coast. Had a hard time carrying those stuffs. It's damn heavy for your information. Settled down and both Ahpa and his sis started BBQ-ing stuffs. Whilst me Shikin and Ming Li sat there taking pictures/ talking. In the middle of everything, suddenly Shikin accidentally stepped onto a fish hook~ Damn & it pierced through her flesh . & she claims that it isn't painful at all. ZOMG!~ Then I keep looking at her wound and she was like, It's okay Louise. It's gonna be alright. Then I shouted, BUT IT'S BLEEDING EHH!! Lol. I think I'm just making a fuss out of it. TSK~
As the sun started setting, people started flowing in as well.. When I saw Kel's mum , Roy and co coming in, I was getting a little over excited. I started off with a big HI! Lol, then they went to the seaside and enjoy the breeze plus the chats and catching ups, I joined in. Roy was nice enough to keep entertaining me. (: Then I keep snap snap snap and every time I snap , Roy will sort of screaaaammmmm. Lol. AHHHH~ Like that. Then I will laugh at his stupidity then Fred will go, eh I want see. Lol. Kel would then join in and say why you take my pic? Lol.
Roy was complaining that he wanted some more food. Then Fred went to get some food and I think Roy thought that it's for him? Then he demanded a mouthful of bee hoon from Fred. Then whilst eating half way, Kel brought a plate of bee hoon for him. Then he say, Oh thanks! with his mouth full of bee hoon. Laughs.
Then KunBiao drove his mini bike(Is this the name for that thingy?) in and I think the noise lured the policemen to our place. Lol~ Then Kerbe's came at a very very slow speed. & everyone was like, Laughing and shouting at him. Then when he parked his mini bike, KunBiao said, Eh Someone finding you. Then he showed the blur face and say huh? Lol. Then after a moment of talk over with the police, he left. Then we continued the stuffs that's going on and at around 9plus, Ah pa, Kel's mum, Vivian and me walked to Sheng Shiong located at the neighborhood area and buy some things. Then Kel's mum say, can we take a cab? Lol~ Cze it's quite far to reach the place. & we're sweating like fcuk!
Then at around 10 , Wenjie came. He didn't notice me until I held up my head and look at him all the way. Lol~ Then he turned to me and say Eh hi!~ & touched my head. Lol! Blah and Blah, Ah pa, set up a tent and Kel's mum , Ahpa and me went inside the tent and talk, sing song and laughed~ Slowly, XiaoTing, Vivian and Bran joined us. Before I left, I was like saying bye to Kel's mum and Kel, Then Kel asked me. You still don't know what to address my mum arhs? Then I was like, YA LOR! Aiyerr~ Then Kel's mum say, you go home and think first la, then think already tell me again. LOL~ Then, finally I went home at 11plus with Ming Li. How nice of him to actually alighted me at my house downstairs and he walked home. Lol. Was a little worn out and went to sleep straight after the cleaning up, and tidying of myself , that's why never update. (:
Attendance checklist:
Ah pa, Ah pa's sis, Ah pa's brother-in-law, Ah pa's sis's friend, Kelvin, Roy, Nelson, Kun Biao, Kun Poh, Freddy, Hai Hui, Vivian, Kel's Mum, Xiao Ting, Kenneth, Bran, Prashan, Robin, Shi Quan, WenJie, Ming Li, Kah Hao, Kerbe .. Sorry if I forget to write your name. :D

Today was a rather boring day I should say.
Left my house at around 5 plus in the noon and headed to Granny's house as she asked me to have my late lunch at her house. Reason being, she'd cooked something for me already and it's been long since I last went to her house. -.- Ok, Reached and had my late lunch there and Auntie came home at around 6pm and she helped me in taking out a prickle on my finger. ): Damn pain la! She used a needle to help me take out. )': I almost cried! Then after which went to meet mummy and she brought me to an Italian restaurant to have my dinner. The restaurant was sort of a high class restaurant? The food are quite yummy and the lobster soup is definitely a thumbs up! (:
Reached home at around 9 plus. & here I am to update. ^^
情到深时，血浓于水。。

Time now: 1:52Am

2008-05-02T19:42:00.000+08:00

Broken hearts are often caused by unspoken words..

Hey, it's currently 3:41am.
So, it should be 2nd of May right?
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICKY GOH!
I can't seem to fall asleep man~ At around 2am , I felt a little sleepy and I tried to sleep. But when I closed my eyes, something arouses me and it kept me wide awake. Damn~ Alright shall start update about my whereabout today.
Received Pz's call at around 4plus in the noon and I rushed down to meet him. He was with jing yao. Wished him happy birthday and get inside the car. Was feeling a little low at that time, I don't know why. Get inside the car and was keeping quiet all the way. Then went to fetch Seng and waited for quite long. Something happened to me, and was fcuking upset about it. All thanks to you know who you are. Next, went to fetch CKH and off we went to town. Headed to PS and met up with my dearest , MJ. When we reach PS, there's a FULL on every level of the carpark, but lucky us, got a parking lot the moment we step into the carpark. And JY ask Pz, when are you buying 4D? LOL~ Alright, then we had our lunch/dinner at Ichiban instead of The Fish Market due to the long queue. Oh! & I must say, KCS and GPZ are both a pervert! Laughs. *only people there understand. LOL~ While eating had quite loads of fun but I was still feeling low at that time. Took some pictures after leaving the place and bid good bye to the birthday boy and Seng as we're leaving already whilst they're still hanging around there.
Train back to Jurong Point and accompanied Kh to buy birthday presents for Kel's mum and Eunice whilst Mj went home. Then went around searching for birthday cake and he volunteered to treat me ice cream at scooped but I say I want bubble tea~ Lol. Then he treated me bubble tea and we then cab to his house and waited for him to bathe then we cab down to Kel's house . Cab fare all he pay la. Lol, Thanks. Reason being, he's too rich! Lol~ Nah, joking . Then surprised Kel's mum and slacked there till around 11pm and he send me home whilst he went to find Eunice and Khoo Fang.
Reached home and at that point of time, I was thinking that this few days it seems like old friend reunion. I'm afraid it's just something like 回光返照, that's something that will happen when somebody is dying. I mean like, maybe it's just a small reunion for all my old friends then I'll lose them in any time. I don't know why but that feeling and thoughts appear in my mind.
Currently it's 4:06am . I took a solid half an hour to type this post. Sigh, many thoughts are filling up my mind right now. I was told that someone actually sort of "complained" to someone about our quarrel. -.- I don't know la. I'm sick and tired of this thing already la. Damn childish cum 无聊.

Alright photos time and enough of saying.
I realized that nowadays I like to upload photo and using photobucket to upload . (:

Some overdued pictures!
That's sweetiie. (:

The time where we studied together.(:

Busy messaging and not studying huh?! Lol.

That's what Nicole wrote to me. How sweet. (:

That day before SS paper.
Ahpa!

That's WJ and his unglum face. Lol.

Their childish act in action. Lol.

Busy playing.

That's what I meant by clenching each other's hand.

That day with Vivi and QQ at Ice skate. Where Peg came afterwards.
I'm resting while they're playing.

Say twist while I'm taking a pic alright.

That night's dinner.

7-eleven!

I love Koko Krunch! (:

1st May.
Pz , busy looking at the song I just sent him. Lol.

At Ichiban ,
Ah Seng!

Chew Kah Hao!

Goh Pei Zong the birthday boy.

Happily discussing about the lady they just saw .

Purposely take a little bit of my face only . Lol.

That's Ah Seng and me. & a little of Mj. Lol.

Mr Chew and me! (((:

Me and birthday boy. (:

Mj and birthday boy.
They wanted to take a pic with the bras at the back ground.
But I don't think it's a success? Laughs.

Mj and Mr Chew~

2008-05-01T15:22:00.000+08:00

OH~ HI SWEETS~
I'm here once again to update!
But first thing I must say is,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GOH PEI ZONG! My good friend~

Hmms, I'm here for a short update only cze I'm preparing to meet him soon. But sudden urge to update la. hehes. Ok, yesterday had a fun time with Vivien QQ and peg! I'm still feeling ache all over my body. Cze of the fallsssss. Lol. ):!
Pain bodoh~ (Don't know why today feel like talking singlish... ) Lol~ Aiya, anyway yesterday super fun! Starting only we jiu fall down liao. All thanks to Vivien hang. Scare me and she almost fall down then I was clinging on to her and she fall I also fall. Then got two guy standing at the don't know what is it call la , looking at us. And we fall infront of them lor~ Damn xia suay~ Lol!
Blah and blah . Oh! and we saw a xiaxue look alike girl. Lol. Skate quite good. But she trip on us and she almost fall down . Lol~ 0.O
K la, I gtg liao. Bye update more when I'm back home alright?!
Adios~ Lol!

2008-05-01T04:42:00.000+08:00

Happen to pass by my primary school friend's blog and saw this.

!. Teacher: "I killed a person", convert this into to future tense.
AB: the future tense is "you will go to jail."

2. AB told his servant: "Go and water the plants!"
Servant: "It's already raining."
AB: "So what? Take and umbrella and go"

My gawd~ I was laughing like ahsiao~
There's more to it, but I'm lazy to copy paste here. hahas.

It's exceptionally weird today... Sigh. Atmosphere, people, feeling.

2008-05-01T02:19:00.000+08:00

Heyo heyo 拔萝卜! (:

HIHI ! I'm back from school~ Just finishing bathing ^^y .
Hmms, the SS test today was kinda alright. I really hope I'll pass the this Mid Year man~ Cze I really put in effort on my SS. From past till now, I only pass one test of SS you know?! T.T!! I was so happy when I read the SEQ's question man~ What Ah pa taught me yesterday indeed came out alright~ ((: I'm so happy la . I was happily doing the questions until the last 5 min then I finished it. ^^ & when I finished question 3A, I was heading for 3B , but when I wrote till half way, my brain dead. -.- I can't write anything out man! Fcuk~ My mind turn blank la. TSK~
But never mind, I managed to squeeze something out of my brain. Lol. Then while the paper is ending, Ah pa's phone rang la! It's Kelvin who called him . Haas, Poor thing . His hp kena confiscated. Shag~ Then he tell me his wallet also lost. Like, WTH~ You're damn suay la.
Sigh.. Don't know what he do , so much unlucky things fall on him.

Ok, I think I'm going out later with sweetiie? Not sure, see how first. Maybe I'm going ba. Lol~ Like talking to myself luh. Hahas.
Ok, BYE! I'm off to prepare to... REST! (:

2008-04-30T15:06:00.000+08:00

Black is the code today. (:
This ferris wheel is damn chio alright!

Jacq's kuku face and more!

This bruise made her keep showing off how 伟大 she is. -.-

The house very nice right? Say yes even if it's not. (:

& today's pictures~
Nice nice~ HK CAFE!

Spot you!

This pic look nice to me. The lightning and focus. ^^

Nai cha~ (:

I swear this is damn nice la. Will go for second time for this! ((:

Black pepper chicken with rice. Yum~

Dessert! (:

-.-

This is candid. But turn out nice. (:

Ahpa face look twisted! LOL! 0.O

WJ look gong gong haha.

STUDY!

Pizza hut our dinner~

Overslept today and since there's no test/exam today, I gave it a miss to attend lesson today. Woke up and saw 3 missed call and 2 message. Sweetiie's and Kit's . A big sorry to both of them, cze the time they message me, I'm still like sleeping, and they wanted to ask me meet them and what. ): & even big sorry to Kit cze due to me never answer / reply her message, she went for lunch alone. ):!!!!

Ok, woke up and called Kit and she asked me to meet her. So, went preparing and get out of house at around 1pm? Cab down to Queenstown. Met her and went around searching for something that I've been searching for the past few days. Lol. But in the end didn't buy the things I wanted to buy instead, get the other one. Lol. She wanted me to accompany her to buy her things & yet it turn out that she's the one who's accompanying me buying my stuffs. Lol. Intended to go to bugis, but I complained that I'm hungry so we went to HK cafe for my brunch. Lol. While eating, Ahpa called me and asked where am I. I told him and he said that he initially wanna ask me out to study for tomorrow's SS. Only then I realize that I had a SS test tomorrow. Laughs, stupid ain't I? Ok, told Kit and she said , Don't go bugis liao. You got exam tomorrow and you still come out and never study?! Lol, she reprimanded me that. )): Laughs, alright I know that she say that out of kind intention. (:

Had a fun time eating with her and a fun day with her la. While eating, took lots of photos (as required by her) . Then I treated her that meal as an advanced birthday gift for her. Lol. Then went back to Jurong already. Met up with Ahpa and WJ at WJ's house nearby. Then walked to Ahpa's house and studied the rest that we didn't studied. At around 8pm , walked to FICO and had our dinner , studied and summarize some of it. OH! & the both of them really make my day luh. WJ keep giving me those innocent face telling me that Ahpa bully him. LOL~ The both of them keep clenching each other's hand . -.- Very childish but funny at the same time. Lol.
Then walked WJ to the pathway beside WWSS and walk off with Ahpa. Then Ahpa is being a nuisance by bringing me walking around like rounding . -.- Cze he keep walking this way and turning back and walk the other way like maze like that. Hahas. Then I got a little fed up and shouted at him. Then he laughed at himself. LOL~ Then I walked home alone after that. Reached home at around 9 pm and now I'm blogging! (:
There's SS test tomorrow. Last paper!! Actually there's still a geog paper, but I don't want to take so I regard SS as my last paper. (:
Bye people~ Love you !

2008-04-30T14:32:00.000+08:00

I think this is seriously ludicrous.
& I swear Jealousy KILLS.

It's fcuking ridiculous la alright. It's merely a care/concern from ahpa that he cooked for me that day alright. If you people are really unhappy about this, come straight to my face and speak it out. Don't speak ill of me behind my back as it's really a very childish act. It really tickles me when I heard those stuffs la. -.- Really -.-!!!!!!!!!!

You people are like so free to read my blog and speaking ill of it behind me. & acting oh-so-nice in front of me . Like, duh~ Childish man! FYI, if you think ahpa and whoever went out with me, was me the one who went around "finding friends" to do so, then you are so so so wrong. Ask them first before you wanna say anything about me alright. I never and ever will so thick skinned and go around asking them to go out with me. It's them the one who contacted me and asked me out alright. Ain't behaving like you, I am not a find-friender~ -.- Blogging all this out was to clarify things that I didn't do and to add on, it's to say that you guys are damn damn damn childish. & not that I wanna make a fuss out of it. It's because I can't take it anymore.(:

I've had my say and hope you people won't be so childish anymore alright. (: I'm just a phone call away. So to confront or scold or chide , can just call me alright. I won't fcuking siam you guys nor will I reject your calls. ^^ I'm not humji like you guys are.

Will put this post as private maybe tomorrow? After you people had read , and to save face for you people.

2008-04-29T09:51:00.000+08:00

Just came back from SS with dad. (:
It's been a long time since I last went shopping for groceries with daddy. ^^
The feeling's still so great. Daddy keep saying that he's bringing a 3 year old kid instead of a 17 year old kid to shop for groceries. -.- Cze i keep stuffing the things I wanna buy into the trolley. Hehe.

On a separate note,
Sweetie told me something that makes me think that I'm dumb. I said I miss this person , but on the other side, I know nothing about this person. Sigh. Such a failure. Whatever...

我睁开眼睛却感觉不到天亮
东西吃一半莫名其妙哭一场
我忍住不想时间变得更漫长

2008-04-29T05:15:00.000+08:00

Does sleep deprivation really can cause brain dead?

ARGH~ I just now went to someone's blog and like browse through randomly as I randomly saw it's blog. Then I saw how close they are la. Like, ))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))): x100000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000 times la.
Damn grieve to see them this close la. Ok la, you want say me jealous or what also can la. But really gek xim to see this scene man~ Today at bus stop also see ** with the cliques. Then like, finally ** saw me. Smiled and waved hardly to **. Sigh... Why must things happen this way? I really miss our past man, when you're so innocent. Shrugs~
I really hope that we can like close back. But I know it's pie in the sky loh. Sigh...
Argh argh argh! These few days kept thinking of ** )):!!! Just miss the way ** call me, *** . LOL~
Miss the time when I receive those encouragement's message, comforting message. ):!
Think back really very sad loh!!
Why why why! Must like, drift apart ley?!
I lost the phone that has the message you sent me. Just like how I lost you .
At times I think back I really wished to blame some one. Some one that cause all this drift apart to take place. Sigh, but it was actually my fault either! Why must we be so childish as to quarrel and scream over the phone and aiya. WTF~ Don't wanna continue liao. Feeling even more sad already la. ): !!!
BYE~ Shall update another time. ):!!!

2008-04-27T18:18:00.000+08:00

从没有为了谁不顾安危付出一切

I wanted to post lots of pictures today, but all of them are like too big that it take decades to be uploaded. Not to waste my precious time waiting for it to be uploaded, I think I'm uploading it other time. (: I know it's boring to just read a blog without pictures but bear with it ya? I'll upload the pics like, tomorrow?

Alright, here to update about my whereabouts this few days.
Friday 25April
Didn't went to school as I overslept like again? Arghs, which means that I went to school only on Monday and Wednesday. Ok, whatever. Received a text from sweetie that morning and went preparing to meet her. Went to the polyclinic and get a MC with her. Then, reached home at around 12pm, bathe and such and went to fetch my girl, Jacq. Whilst waiting for our bus, saw the sweet Raja and he asked if I'm feeling better. Ha! To think that there's still someone out there in the world concerning about me. LOL~ Ok , I know maybe it's just that he casually asked about it, but at least he ASKED! Lol~ Then went to Jacq house and wait for her to prepare. Managed to leave her house at around 2plus in the noon. Had our lunch at LJS and down to VIVO~
Reached and our first destination was cinema! Got our tickets and went buying tidbits and relieved ourself. Watched Hansel and Gretal , should I say it's quite a nice movie? Alright. Aftermath, we went to searched for my stuffs. Got it but I'm still left with one more thing to buy. TSK! Why in the world that VIVO , such a big shopping mall, doesn't sell that thing?! Argh~ Never mind, then headed down to bugis and meet up with the cliques. Had fun eating with them, but I guessed I'm being a fool/clown over there? xP
Hmms, then it was Fushion next, had a great time there watching PORN~ LOL, only people who are there understand what I'm saying. hahas. Then my leg started to pain once again. Intended to cab back home but not much are there. So gave it a miss and took the last train back. Reached Jurong and found out that my last bus is like long ago already . In the end, took a cab . Cyn was being a very nice girl to take care of me all the way. Thanks girl~ Love ya!

Saturday 26April.
Well, today is a birthday day. LOL~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YVONNE JIE(Kel's mum) & JIALING 小妹妹~
Only managed to wake up at 12pm this afternoon due to the late night sleep yesterday. xP Messaged Kel and asked him to send my regards to his mum and he asked if I wanna tag along. But sad to say, I've something on! )): I so wanna go with them la. Sigh . But never mind. So, met Jacq at around 3 pm and down to Jurong sai to trim her eyebrow. Then to JP and meet Ah Xing, at the same time, searched for my stuff that I didn't manage to get it yesterday at VIVO. But still, didn't manage to find one that satisfy me. ): Well, then after roaming around JP, Ah Xing drove us back to his apartment. Chit chatted a little and he asked me something which kept me thinking real hard. Sigh, how I wished my answer is yes. LOL~ Alright alright enough of daydreaming.. Reached his apartment and slacked there till around 7pm and off we went to Xiaoling's chalet. (: In the middle of the journey, had a lot of stuffs happening. We almost get lost in SG. LOl. Stupid PIE Changi, closed for don't know what reason. -.- Then we had a hard time trying to get to pasir ris. & before we went out, Ah Xing actually said that we shall take 2hrs to pasir ris, cze maybe it will be kinda boring. & indeed we took 2 hours to reached! Lol, he and his foul mouth. Nah, just kidding. xP
Had a hard time trying to find a place to park his car. Finally found a place that is not a parking lot. LOL~ & he said SCARLY later come back got one car park behind us. Then we went to jialing's chalet, a little bored? But the people some sort of entertained me due to their silly acts. Laughs. Then went to coasta sand , ah xing bro's chalet. Walked pass them only and went back to get our car already. Lol. & surprising enough, there's really a car parking behind ah xing's car. LOL~ See, his words are damn accurate when it's like for bad things. Ok, then he drove us back to cck and fetch his sis and cousin for supper. Then he drove me home after that. & now, I'm home! Reached home at around 1plus in the midnight. It's currently 3:14am and I'm quite weary. Gonna go catch my beauty sleep soon.
BYE People! Nights and Miss ya~

2008-04-25T12:08:00.000+08:00

I don't know why but I've a sudden urge of getting a crumpler bag right away.
Anyone has any lobang of getting a crumpler bag cheap?
Second hand also can, but must be of 10/10 condition alright? Lol.

2008-04-25T11:21:00.000+08:00

Ida Scott Taylor once wrote:
Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone;
and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come.

2008-04-23T15:57:00.000+08:00

Hey people!
Miss my post? Lol, I'm just being a little thick-skin here. :D
Ok, I have a lot to post about! Lol.
First, I've finished the survey Jenini wanted me to do! (:
Secondly, I feel damn happy and shiok should be the word to describe the feeling I had just now in school alright! (: Oh my oh my, you're so poor thing man!! hahahas. I shan't elaborate la to save face for you, cze I pity you. (:
Thirdly, ahpa is damn lovely la, but in the same time, evil too! Lol.
Fourthly, Mommy bought me a new phone! ((:
Fifthly, I changed new no.! LOL~ Text my old no. to get my new no. from me ya? ((:
Lastly, I'm very happy today! ^^

Ok, Shall elaborate more on third point and below. LOL!
A wonderful day with ahpa! ((: It was the day for our Mid year first paper. Woke up in the morning realizing that I'm late! OMFG. I jumped up once I heard daddy's call. Told him that oh shit! I'm late. Went for preparation at around 7.2o in the morning, and manage to get out of my house only at 7.40am. Reached school saw many people still at quadrangle , don't dare step into the parade square. So I hid myself in the washroom. Get out and headed to my classroom. To my astonishment, nothing happened! HAHA! Peacefully reached school, peacefully finished up my paper, peacefully went home. HEHE. Walked ahpa home and he walked me home after his bath. Then he went to SS buy the food and headed to my house to cook a meal for me! Hehe, I smell the word happiness from here. Ha! Then he cooked in the kitchen alone whilst me the lazy one stayed in my room and use com. But! I did helped out a little alright. ^^
Finally everything is done, I laid the tables and prepare for the meal! Although ahpa seems to any-o-how cook , but he did put in effort la. hehe. Ok, finished our meal at around 1pm. Then he pestered me to accompany him to get something. ):
I keep annoyed him with the excuses I'm a lame. But he doesn't seems to care leh. TSK! He's such a cruel/evil/baddy person! Lol. Ok, so I went out with him bearing the pain and all. Cab down to IMM to look for his things but couldn't find one that satisfy him. So picky! Ha. So we cab(as requested by me) down to JE . He suggested to go kbox , and I was like, HEY~ Great minds think alike. Ok, so headed to Kbox and sang all the way till 7pm. But in the middle, something eerie happened! OMFG~ Scared our wits out. LoL!
We were inside the room and everything looks ok on the outside. But when the staff went out of the room, the light suddenly blink and light up, when it's off. Oh my~ Then never mind, we sang and sang for only 5min. Suddenly the TV black out! TMD~ 吓死人！Then we called the people to come in and check then they say is the electricity got connection problems. WTH~
Ok, then we continue to sing, I tell you something. Kbox is damn rich! Their air-con like no need money like that. Damn COLD ALRIGHT! Both of us was like, walao! KBox air-con no need money sibo. Want freeze us to death arh? Lol.
Ok, so left the place at around 7plus then mummy came and fetch me. Headed to IMM to get my new phone! Initially I have no idea what phone to get as I don't really has the excitement of changing phone. LOL~ In the end, after the shop owner's recommendation, I took SE w890i . (: Changed my line either. ((: Damn happy la today. At least I knew there's still people who loved me! LOL! Ok la, I sound kinda buay ba~ Don't care! ^^

The phone I bought!

The Sumptuous meal Ahpa cooked!

Ahpa in Kbox. Eating seriously. Lol.

PS: My leg is hurting me!
PPS: I can't go to school tmr again! )):
PPPS: I miss my classmate! ))))):

Bye people! Update again when I'm free/ I feel like updating.

2008-04-23T15:56:00.000+08:00

1. At what age do you intend to marry?
Well, I think 23-25?

2. What you want the most now?
Good grades for O. New Lappy.

3. Who is the person you trust most?
Kit?

4. If the guy you like confess, what will your reaction be?
Oh I see. (:

5. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
I wouldn't have this illness in me.

6. What if your boy/girlfriend betray you?
Ok, bye.

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
Nothing, because I have nothing to lose.

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
Depends on who I'm dealing with.

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
No, I'm shy. LOL~

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
Jenini.
Cheerful, pretty, and chatty.

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
Well, guess the person must be able to tolerate my temper?
Taller then me. LOL~

12. what type of person you hate most?
Betrayer.

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
Definitely, if not I wouldn't cry over spilled milk.

14. Do you believe in god?
Of course. They do exist just like we exist in this world. (:

15. What's the common thing about handsome?
Thick eyebrow! But not la bi xiao xin. (:

16. Do you find it a need for you to have girlfriend/boyfriend?
Yes and no?
Yes is there's someone for me to lean on to.
No is, I think I'm independent? LOL~

17. At this point of time, would you rather stay in a comfort zone or try out something new?
Comfort zone.

18. What kind of friend you hope to be in your friend's eyes?
Truthfulness

19. Are you happy with your life now?
One will never be satisfied. Neither would I too.

20. What is the thing that you most crave now?
Tiramisu.

Instructions:Remove 1 question from the above and add in your own personal question.
Make it a total of 20 questions. Tag 8 people in your list and list them out.
1. Yvonne.
2. Jacqueline.
3.Josephine.
4.Peggy.
5.Nicole.
6.Shimin.
7.VivienH.
8.Anyone who wants to do, jiu do lor. Then tell me you're doing. LOL~

2008-04-19T21:01:00.000+08:00

Alright , it's been quite a moment since I last updated? Hmms, fuming hot right now.
Friendship is wrecked.
I know you will read my blog that's why I posted this.
To someone,
Do whatever you want behind my back la hor. Go around asking people anything that I say or what la. I don't fcuking care nor give a damn about it. Ask your GREAT FRIEND to come and view my blog I also don't fcuking give a damn la hor. Wrote on my blog is because I'm extremely not happy with you. You stole my friend, and you treated her like dustbin, can't I even be at least a little angry at you?! Now good friends become stranger, are you happy? Thank you very much for your effort in making us like that la hor.
You may say that I'm ludicrous or whatever, but to me, I would feel so sad reason being I treated her truthfully, and I really feel that losing a friend makes me feel damn sad alright. Ok, maybe to you it's nothing or what , but I really cannot take it already lor. Ok, you may think that I have infantile behavior over this thing. But once you ever have a good friend that you wished to be nice with , to treat her wholeheartedly, you would feel just like me alright?!
She was once my close friend, but now it's gone. All thanks to you.
It really pains me when I heard the news of sister going out on a celebration or what, and I'm not included . Instead, you're included. Understand the feeling? I don't mind not being included, but what I mind was you're included. Fcuk.Why don't you just scram and go back to your fcuking bf. Shrugs! Forget it, anyway saying this much, also won't turn back anything. Even if she's back to me, the feeling will also be awkward already. So forget it, take her for all you want. Thanks for everything you do to me in the past ok. (:
But for now, I hate you.

Study with Cyn yesterday night and this afternoon. Had a little chat with her and I was feeling damn sad/disappointed/angry . Well, nothing much I should say and I think friendships are meant to be broken just like promises. (: That's my point of view towards friendship. Thanks for those who make me feel disappointed in friendship ya.
Left me alone crying in the night, feeling disappointed in everything .
Sigh..

I've decided to put back my tagboard because I feel that something gonna happen soon. (:

2008-04-16T22:57:00.000+08:00

I've removed my tagboard already.
Cze I feel that very little people tag me.
Then feel a little weird la. So I removed it. (:
Anything leave me a msg on msn/friendster/hp . LOL~
^^

2008-04-16T19:12:00.000+08:00

Pout my lips and say, I WANT!

Lalalala, Having high spirits right now. I don't know why. Haw haw haw~ ((:
Another mundane day ...
Stayed at home whole day doing nothing siol. Leg still haven't recover!! I wanna go sports day de leh!
Suddenly I had a different point of view on TATTOO. Ok, people who know me well, know that I hate people who put tattoo. But now, I look at tattoo with a different view. To those ignorant people, they may think that tattoo is something that's very COOL~ But to me, now, I think it's kind of art. Ok, I speak as if I know art like that. But seriously, I think that to those people who love art, they may think it positively. But to those who don't know a puny weeny thing about art, may treat it as oh-my-freaking-god I've got a tattoo & I think it makes me so cool.-.-

Whatever la. HEHE (:
Just now my com break down, scare my wits off. I thought I gonna lost this whole post. BUT! Luckily blogger got the auto save . hahas. ^^

Suddenly think of something, previously, people rumors that eating pringles will allow one to have cancer, but why do I still see people eating pringles? Lol. Contradicting facts , isn't it?

Ok, I also got nothing to blog about already.
Bye people. (:

2008-04-16T12:02:00.000+08:00

Suddenly, I wished that I'm in my mid 20s now.

Hey ! Two days never go to school already. Hope there isn't a three days. Sigh. Leg pain relapse and I can't move around freely. Like _|_ .
Can't go out,
Cant' go school,
Cant' get out of my bed,
Can't move around,
Can't even get a glass of water on my own.
I feel like a handicap . -.-

Back to update on Nic's birthday celebration the other day.
11 April 2008 Friday
Morning went to get MC with two of my girl, intended to get a slow bath when I reached home. Guess what, when I'm in the bathroom, Sweetie called and said we're downstairs already! Faster come down. Then I took a speedy bath and quickly rushed down to board their cab. Poor Jacq had to go home herself and stayed at my house for not more then 15min. Sorry girl. Then down we went to MS. Roam around finding suitable cake for the birthday girl. Finally it's time for us to settled down and have a scrumptious meal. (:Had everything done and off we went home.
Opps , btw, to add on. Saw a guy that day that became the topic between me and Peg. Laughs.

13 April 2008 Sunday
Wake up early in the morning but only mange to set off at 3 in the noon. Went for praying with father on our paternal grandparents. Had a fruitful day with all cousins and of course my dad! Oh, at night, went to have our dinner at woodland. At a coffeshop under my cousin's block, when we're done with the food, setting off, I saw that guy again. Laughs. What a coincidence. Told Peg about that and she asked me not to hao lian. ): I didn't ! I merely told her that I saw that guy and she chided me. x(
On the way home, I suddenly felt a little pain on my right knee , & I tell daddy , I think it's coming back again. Then the next morning I woke up, I realise my right leg is in a great pain and I called daddy, what I said last night really came true. Like what the ho!
Ok, that explain why I didn't go to school for like two days. It seems like a one week holiday to me lo. Cze Friday I never go school, adding up to this two day, it's like 5 days. Almost a week. LOL. Ok, Bye people. That's all for today . (:

More updates when I'm free. ^^

Oh ya! Did I say I bought a camera already? ((:
Hehes, I love cam! ^^

2008-04-13T03:34:00.001+08:00

Nicole's birthday celebration was a thumbs up.
I wanna thanks the few who make me feel warmth in the heart. Thanks.
You should know who you are. ((:
Sorry Nicole for saving up the details in my blog. But currently, I don't have the very good mood to blog about it. ): Shall repay when I'm in the mood.

I didn't know there was this thing going on on this particular day. If I were to know about it, I would have went. I never missed one ** at all. Only on that night.. I was the one who would went w/o fail. But this time, I didn't went to the **. & this stupid thing make me feel so bad that until now, 3:38am , I'm still wide awake. Sigh.. I hate it man. Sorry readers, I promised not to have anymore sad post, but I still updated a sad sad post. ): Please people, don't come and ask me why I so sad. Cause I really don't wish to explain. & I'm lazy to explain. But try your luck la, maybe you're the one whom I wanted to talk to.
Aiya. Rubbish la me.

What I needed now was Ahpa's voice clip . Had a chat with him just now, he's damn cute la. Though he pissed me off at times. First voice clip was. "Idiot!" I never replied , cause I'm watching Hooping Dulcinea . Then his second voice clip was. " Answer leh! " I still never reply. Then he say again. " OI~........................." LOL~ Then, my WMP suddenly minimize, and I saw his conver. So I talked to him. Then he keep using the voice clip and talk to me. Ok la, I really laugh like crazy. But after awhile, he offline liao. ):
Sigh, I think I'm really a dumb ass. Say so much, do so much. Some dumbass also don't know. -.-

2008-04-12T23:37:00.000+08:00

I think I'm a fool. 如果当初我能果断一点,
I think I'm being used. 如果当初我能勇敢一点,
I think I'm useless. 如果当初我能乐观一点,
I think I'm sad. 如果当初我能不顾一切一点,
I think I'm bored. 如果当初我能大胆一点，
I think I'm a rubbish. 如果当初我能放下面子,
I think I'm someone not important. 如果当初我能狠下决心的话,
I think I'm crazy. 一切就不会像现在这样了...
I think I'm nothing. 而我现在也就不会那么难过了...

2008-04-12T21:07:00.000+08:00

I am F.SAD right now.
If you're allowing that person to do this, don't expect me to do anything for you anymore in the future! Argh, I thought it doesn't matter to me anymore, but after seeing it, it matters. It really does.. Sigh..
Since that person will help you , then in the future, I guess I need not do anything for you le right? The promises I also no need to fulfill liao loh. Since anyway, you can ask that person to fulfill it what. DAMN~ If you understand me, I think you will also understand this post. (:
I thought I'll forget you.. ARGH! ):

2008-04-12T01:11:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday NICOLE BAO BEI!!!! (:

Update more tmr. It's 1:12am now, & I'm tired. (:

2008-04-10T22:25:00.001+08:00

HEY people! Some pics to entertain you people.
Pardon me for the untidiness of the pictures. hehe. ((:
HAHA! Caught you! ((:

Thanks for smiling. Lol!

Wake up Firman!

Hi hi! (:

I saw you peeping at my cam! Lol.

Sunrise from my house. LOL

That's the result of taking my pic unknowingly! :D

Toy of the day. Even Mdm Rozi plays with it. LOL

That's Firman, Khairil, Zahid, JianYang, & some. LOL.

The geog students.

The other day studying with her.

^^

Don't shy~ (:

HI NICOLE !

That's my bro! (: ♥

2008-04-10T21:23:00.001+08:00

Hihi! Today isn't a nice day. ):<

Went to school today as usual. Woke up only at 6:56am and to realize that I'm almost late. Then I suddenly remember that today is Thursday. There's PD. So, if I'm late, I don't think it matters right? Haw haw haw! Then , when I walked till the basketball court, YT called me. Asking me to wait for him. & so, the nice Louise waited for him! (: Took the lift with him to 4th floor on the third floor. Lol, he very lame loh. Then we reached school and saw vivienhang and limshimin. While we're walking towards the class, vivienhang hold my hand and lead me to the railway there and point towards the sun and say, There.sunrise. LOL~ LAME la. Ok, FYI if you people did read on my post carefully, last post or last last post, I stated I feel like watching sunrise/sunset. LOL! & my wish come true. -.- haha. kk. Hmms, Lessons as usual.. Had a SS test today. But not sure if I'm able to pass because I just learn about the chapter today. Sad die. But I still manage to write a page length of answer. HEHE. Ok, Then had Chemistry make up. I am so happy that I am one of those who can solve the question. Initially I still think that maybe I won't be able to answer correctly. Then when I finally got the answer, I shouted YEAH! MY ANSWER CORRECT! Lol~ Then I look around, I saw people giggling and laughing at me. Ok, I know it's in a joking manner. HAHA . Aiya Dumb me. LOL. && that Firman laughed at me . ): hahas. K la, I love my class because there are fun people like Firman, Raja, Shikin, Ah pa, YT, HH , sometimes Colin.. Blah and blah.. Haha, but today afternoon spent my day inside 5A all the way until Miss Chen came. They were all bullying Wen Jie and Shafie loh. LOL~ Damn funny. Then there was one part I shouted why you all keep bullying him(WJ)?! Then he turn and say , Louise.... Like very tongku liddat~ LOL! Damn funny lah. They keep pulling his hair and shaking him. & that stupid Shafie keep playing vibration on me. Then it's like damn look alike loh. hahaha. Ok, that was before Chemistry and after SS.

After school, supposed to have POA make up, but I'm lazy to go. So I tell sweetie that I'm not going and she says she's not going either. Haha.(: Then, accompany Nicole to Jp. It's been ages since I last went to Jp after school loh. Ok. Went to the basement and I randomly tell her, Aww.. Am feeling damn hungry right now.. ): Then I quickly add on, you surely don't want eat de. So I don't want to eat also . Go home then eat. But before I finish my sentence, she said. Ok loh. Let's go eat something. HAHA! MIRACLE SIOL~ Ok , Treated her lunch as tomorrow's her big day. HEHE. Then crap a lot with her. She was telling me that her Chinese sucks. & she randomly used a Chinese Idiom. 粒粒皆辛苦. Then I chided her saying. Please don't rubbish, it isn't used in this way alright. LOl. Then I tell her the real meaning. & both of us keep using it. Then I keep telling her 粒粒皆辛苦 , and tells her to finish up her food. Blah and Blah... Then went to get something and off we went home.

Inside the bus, I was like disgracing myself loh. ): Ok, first thing is that I saw this person with shoulder-length hair , very fair skin color , sitting in quite a famine way. I thought that was a girl. So I sat down beside this person. Then because I lose balance, I fell and instantly sat beside this person. Then I was like, ok. Forget it. I bumped into that person either. Then along the journey back home, I was watching the tv mobile. Then accidentally the car break then I bumped into this person again. THEN, HE turned and look at me. I was like, EH?! YOU'RE A GUY?! lol~ Scare my wits off. ): Some more, he got mustache loh. Chua sai~ Ok, Then that person look at me trying to hint that it's his stop. He's getting down. Then I stand up and move aside. But as I tried to do so, I was a like a little fumbled thus, catching many people's eyes . ): Such a disgrace la. Then Finally I'm alighting. I fumbled once again. Then I almost drop my plastic bag and the amount of noise make me feel a little ashamed. ): While I was walking home, I took out my key. & my key almost drop on the floor, then I was like searching for it. Only then I realized that it dropped inside my plastic bag! ): Like very xia suay loh. ))):!!!

ARGH! Today is just not my day! ):
Bag is too big, too heavy .
Due to someone who brings a bag of thing to school today.
Ok, I don't blame that person. Just that the bag of thing is really very heavy la!
I stuff everything inside my bag as I'm lazy to hold it. ):
Did so many disgraceful things. ):
I feel not good.
Bad hair day.
Everything is just not on my side.
Msn is also bullying me!
Everytime cannot sign in. ):
Talk to me even if I'm online people,
Try your luck I mean. LOL~ Aiya..
Sum up, today is just not my day!
)';

On a separate note, thanks sweetie today for the short chat.
I hate her. I hate her!!
& you're a fool! XP!!!!!!!!!
Why contact me again after I choose not to contact you?
Why contact me again after I had tried to let go? ):

2008-04-08T20:54:00.000+08:00

HEYO!

Low Low Low Low ....
Lols, Listening to Low right now.

Ok, I don't know what happen to me la. Yesterday's post sound so sad. Then today feel so high. -.- I think I'm a little haywire up there. Lol! Ok, today is cousin's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIE! ((:

& I don't think I'm able to sleep tonight. Because I haven't complete my assignment! But I'm feeling sleepy already lah. ): DIE~ I wasted my day because I'm feeling lethargic to do anything, so I laid on my bed and rot the whole day. HAW HAW HAW~
*shows superman/ultraman sign. LOL~

Oh, it's a rainy day today, and I can't open my window. Thus feeling very hot . ):
My air con loathe me. ): That's why it's spoilt.
Told mummy about it, and she ask me to use the fan. ):
Like, my room can't contain the fan la. Because I can't find a place to place it. ):

On a separate note, I feel like watching sunrise/sunset leh. ):
& I love Yvonne Ho. (: HEHE.

Ok, a bit random la this post. Bye. (:
Update tomorrow if there's anything for me to update about. ^^

2008-04-07T23:51:00.000+08:00

Suddenly, this thing flash across my mind that I wanted to blog about it .

I asked myself, if tomorrow something happen to me / my family / my friends / someone I loved. Be it they died, injured, or sent to hospital. Definitely, inauspicious thing should not happen , Like CHOY~ Ok, Then I told myself, if I were to know about this, what will I do? Cry as loudly as I could to show my unhappiness and unwillingness about the truth, or just faint and realize the next moment I'm lying on the hospital bed as I can't take the blow. My mind are running wild right now. I'm really afraid all this that I thought of is happening just at the next moment.

Aye. Forget it, I'm stopping this post right now. As I'm afraid something really happen. Sigh..

2008-04-07T21:27:00.000+08:00

You're a dumb! You're a silly one! You're a fool! To sum up, you're nothing but just a rubbish bin to her! When her bf isn't free to accompany, you're the one she looks for.
In a nice way, you're just being a good friend to accompany. But in a nasty way, you're someone whom she wants, she will look for you, when she doesn't need you, she won't bother to look for you.
Actually I ain't angry at you, I'm just feeling unfair for you! In the past, when she have a bf, she will not even care to look for her sister. Now that she ain't that close to her bf, she finds back her old friend. She think what? Always here available for you uh?! DAMN~ & Only in school, when she had no other friends, and her bf is not with her, she will look for her sister. Other than that, she won't bother to look for us. -.- Like, WTF. But the silly you, just keep on accompanying her like it logically follows that..
& I'm seriously sick and tired of how she actually make use of her sister. WTF!

Ok, Maybe because inside my mind, I already abhor her attitude and such, that's why I dislike her even more. But , seriously, I hate her. Say that I'm crude, say that I'm mean or whatsoever, I don't give a damn. Argh, I had had enough of her nonsense. Guess I'll find one day to talk to her or what. She wanna cry like fcuk also not my problem. I've already had my say and I won't regret doing so.

Ok, enough of all the shits about that person.
___________________________________________________________________

On a separate note, I'm feeling quite down this few days. I've been thinking and thinking and reminiscing on my past. I felt that what's meant for me are no longer mine. Few of my closest friend that I ever had or should I say spend my days with , have already left me and find their new friends .
First, it's J. Once a very close person to me . The one who would talk to me on phone for a very long period of time, regardless of what things that we will say or discuss. Due to some internal affairs , he left. No longer that close to me, no longer the close one to me, no longer a person who would listen to all my shits in the middle of the night , no longer a person who would walk me home after school, no longer a person who would accompany me watch cd till I'm tired.
Sigh, gone..
Second, it's JH. A person who confides to me whenever he's sad or having any problem. A person who will cheer me up when I'm feeling down. A person who always tickle me and make me laugh. A person who would say the lamest and coldest joke in the world, just to see a smile on my face. A person who would come to my house downstairs and look me up just to have a small chat or what. A person who would always pester me to lend him my lappy to play his maple . A person who never fails to talk to me whenever I needed one to talk to , without me signaling. & He just knows it. Due to a misunderstanding, no longer mine closest one. Sigh. Another gone..
Third, Ahpa. The one who gave me the most memories.. The one who I always hang around with 2 years back till now. Always a happy pill of mine. Whenever I see him, I'll laugh wholeheartedly, not a fake one. Though we both keep bicker with each other, we still cared for each other. Whenever I make him angry, he tends to act as if he's really angry. But I never give in to him. Yet, we're still back to normal the next moment. But whenever he make me angry, I'll not easily give in, and he will pout his lips and say k la k la. & we're back to normal again. Always saying lame jokes, doing funny actions, by all means try to make me laugh. Though I keep "bully" him , in a joking manner, he knows that deep in my heart I still love my daddy! Sometimes he will give attitude , but when I show him my dulan face, he will give in to me and say sorry. Always wanna me to remind him of things as if I'm his walking palm top. Whenever I fails to remind him, he'll scold me and say how can you forget! Blah and blah, and we'll start to bicker again. To me, I finds that he do really dote on me as in really cared for me, I can sense it. Remember the times when we went for cycling trip, I trip and fell down and he took real good care of me. Though he did laugh at my clumsiness, but I know he cared. Knowing that I'm not a good rider, he will always cycle behind or in front of me depends on whether there's a person in front or behind me, making sure that I do not trip and fall again.. But now, he's no longer mine only. He found his new friend. Not my dearest daddy anymore. The times we shared, the things we said, the things we did , are all kept deep inside my heart. But do you remember?
Sigh, now he's gone too.

The cliques that I'm hanging around with, ain't an ideal one in my mind. All looks fake to me and doesn't really concern / care about me. They care only those that are beneficial to them. Shrugs. I'm feeling even more down right now. Plus the flu I'm having right now. Sigh.. Headache! Feeling very sad la. ):

2008-04-06T21:29:00.000+08:00

HEY PEOPLE!
Two days since I last updated.

Ok, yesterday was quite a fruitful day to me luh. Also, a sad day. ):
Reason being, BIG BROTHER IS GONE ON A TAIWAN TRIP DUE TO ARMY POSTING. ):
Met Yvonne the lap sap, Nicole and Eileen at Jp at around 3 in the noon. Went to get something from Jp with lap sap. Then , went to find Jo , Pei yi and co. at 6 head there. Stayed and slacked for a little while, and we went off. As Nicole's parent is coming to fetch her home. So, we left and headed to Jp. Then I suggested to go VIVO to get my havaianas and our pencil box! :D
Got into the NUM shop and both of us started to look at the slipper. Was searching for any colour that I like. Then a guy came over and ask if we needed any help. I just wave and said, it's alright. Then, didn't take much notice of that guy mah. Then, when I finally decided to get that one, I went to the cashier and pay money. Then the guy that wanted to serve us previously , happen to be the cashier guy also. Then he very cute loh, because I handed him my Nets card and I think he never seen before SC's Nets card. So he asked me, erm? Nets uh? Then I was like, giggling and said , ya nets . LOL~ Cause his facial expression very blur and funny. Hahaha.
Okok, Then after paying, when lap sap and me walks away, we started to say, walao~ he damn cute lor! LOL~ Like some bian tai char bor liddat. hahah. Then, I walk away and to the other side of the shop. Then I saw a guy with very nice dimple when he smile! Gawd~ Damn cute lor. Then, we decided to roam around the shop and keep looking at the dimple guy. Hawhawhaw~
Err, I think I'm a bit too embellishing? AHAHAHA~ Who cares~

Alright, then we finally left the shop and we went to 37degree and look for our pencil box. Blah and blah, then we went back to NUM shop again. LOL~ Then I purposely drag lap sap and we walk pass the dimple guy. haha . & this time round, he said welcome back again and smiled( I wonder if lap sap heard this). LOL~ Like, he noticed we keep roaming around the shop . Hoho.
Ok, Finally we decided to leave already. Then train back to Jurong East and alighted at CCK with lap sap. Then took 172 back home. Reached home, second bro called and asked if I'm going to the airport. Then I was like, HUH?! I FORGET! Then I quickly rush out of my house and train down to airport. Guess what, I forget to change to the other lane when I reached tanah merah. Then I got off the train and took the other side back. Then reached already. Saw a lot of botaks. Lol. Bro and Nigel was there waiting for me. Lol. Think they're afraid that I'll get lost in the airport. That's why waited for me there. Ok, finally bro ask us to go back home as he's going in already. Was feeling kinda sad la. It's gonna be a month that I'm not able to see my bro. Worst of all, I can't celebrate his 20th birthday with him on his actual day la! I think I'm gonna be quite upset this few days.

Hmms, then when we left the airport, walking towards the carpark, Nigel asked me a question. Are you sad about your brother leaving? Then I said to him. YUP! DAMN! Then he giggled and smile at me. ): Ok, then he drove us home. Sigh...
Bro arh bro. Now that you're going off to taiwan, who's gonna be there to fetch me when I'm feeling lethargic to take a bus home on my own? Who's gonna help me when mummy or daddy reprimanded me? Who's gonna bug me every night when I'm falling asleep soon? Who's gonna talk to me about the char bor thing when I feel like listening to ? Argh.. Fine! I'm just gonna bear with it for a month and you're gonna be back soon! )):

NIGHTS READERS!
SCHOOL TOMORROW~!

Sigh..
Five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes
Five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred moments so dear
Five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes
How do you measure -
measure a year?
In daylights - In sunsets
In midnights - In cups of coffee
In inches- In miles
In laughter - In strife
In - Five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes
How do you measure a year in the life

How about love?
How about love?
How about love?
Measure in love

Seasons of love
Seasons of love

Five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes
Five hundred twenty-five thousand Journeys to plan
Five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes
How do you measure the life
Of a woman or a man?

In truths that she learned
Or in times that he cried
In bridges he burned
Or the way that she died

It's time now - to sing out
Tho' the story never ends
Let's celebrate
Remember a year in the life of friends
Remember the love
Remember the love
Remember the love
Measure in love
Measure, measure your life in love
Seasons of love ... Seasons of love

2008-04-05T00:27:00.000+08:00

Today is neither a good nor a bad day.

Was feeling happy in the morning because teacher praised me and I make and effort to stay in school to make up with teacher.
At night, was feeling damn angry due to something.
WTH! It isn't my fault and please la put yourself in my shoe. Will you be happy to wait for people for almost an hour or so just sitting there watching them playing photo hunt or mahjong. Don't think that by telling YT that you're du lan at me I'll feel sorry. Because in the first place, I'm even more du lan at you alright. All along you knew that I don't wanna meet ** & yet you asked ** along today. Do you think that if you're me, will you be happy? DAMN~

PLEASE LA HOR! I'M NOT BEING HARSH OVER HERE. JUST THAT I CAN'T TAKE IT WHEN PEOPLE TREAT ME LIKE A FOOL. ARGH!!!

2008-04-03T21:57:00.000+08:00

HIHI! I'm back to update my dead blog.

This few days very sian. Though I'm recovering from my illness, but I still can't eat anything much. In fact, food irks me. This morning, I don't know who bought me a packet of cai dao guay. I was happily opening it and going to warm it in the microwave oven. That's because I have been craving it for a few days already. But the moment the first piece entered my mouth, I push the whole thing away. & until now, nothing enters my mouth or stomach. LOL.

See how tomorrow? Maybe I'll be eating something already . HAHAHA! I'm an optimistic person! Like as if... LOL~ I find my post very random lehs. Maybe because of the chat with ah pa a moment ago. Haha.

Ok, I'm feeling a little weird now, I think I had a fever? Maybe? I'll check my temperature later on. Alright, I'm feeling a bit motivated to study right now. Lol, reason being , I made a bet with Kelvin on our O lvl result. HAHA. We gonna compete on our result. (: & another reason is, Ah pa just told me that he had a tuition teacher already, asking me if I wanna join. I agreed! I wished that we can study hard together and enjoy the fruit of success at the end of the day. (:

On a separate note, I keep seeing my working friends nowadays leh leh leh! So happy! (: Seeing them makes me think of those days where we work hard together. & joke around, hehe. Love it.

On a brighter note, I've decided that I'm not going to post anymore sad sad post liao. (: Forget ** is what I wanna do right now. (;

Ok, mum just brought home a packet of food, asking me if I wanna eat. I instantly rejected her offer. I don't know why , but I'm feeling hungry leh. LOL~ Aiya, forget it. I'm catching my beauty sleep soon ! BYE! :D
Oh wait! One very cute picture to end off my post! (:
MY CUTE AHPA! ^^

2008-03-31T17:18:00.000+08:00

I am Louise Lee! :D
I found something fun to play.
I'm just trying out. hoho! (:

2008-03-31T15:56:00.000+08:00

I'm sick, due to my stupid mouth.
Just told Cynthia yesterday that it's been long since I last fall ill.
Then , today I'm sick.

Wth! Reach school only at 9plus this morning. Because yesterday night I can't fall asleep. I don't know why. Then , woke up late this morning. But still I went to school. Reached school, attended two lesson only and I already felt very giddy/ uncomfortable / keep having cold sweats. I'm actually sweating profusely in a air-conditioned room . Then, I cannot take it already. I told Cyn that I'm not feeling well, and she brought me to the GO. Then I call my bro to come and fetch me. While waiting , wz ask me to teach him math. I teach him while standing. Then I keep sweating. Then he say, your sweat no need money one arh? Keep dripping from your head. Then I say, I not feeling hot lehs. In fact, I'm feeling cold. But still I keep sweating.

Wahh, really don't know what happen sia. Then finally bro came and fetch me home. (:
Reach home lie on the bed, get up and I almost fell down. Very giddy siol!
Then rest awhile, now came online loh.

2008-03-31T14:39:00.000+08:00

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

2008-03-30T23:44:00.000+08:00

Cynthia tell me to let go, but I say I can't .
If I can, I would have let go long ago.

I'm a dumbass. (:

I'm happy today. ( if you believe what I say, then it is.)

2008-03-30T23:39:00.000+08:00

I had a moodswing today ( if that's what you wanna me to tell you what happen to me today. )

2008-03-29T23:03:00.000+08:00

Because somebody just scolded me. ):
So I came online, if not she's gonna scold me again.
Lol, just kidding.

Ok, Tomorrow is an important day for TongWhyeTemple basketball player. The choosing of player is tomorrow. Good luck boys! Jiayou. I wanna see the same people playing this June alright?! I will cheered for you guys de! Just like how I used to do last year! (:
On a brighter note, I didn't know that ** will actually talk to me first. Laugh~
Well, I'm happy to study with Cyn, I'm happy to study with Mj. But! I'm not happy to study in school! Lol, Very random lehs. Cause I don't know what to update about.

Hmms, today had a mini steamboat at my house, attendance check- Cynthia Yitian & Louise! (:
Ok, I just bet with Pz that tomorrow he will be late. & he agreed to the betting. Bet on a lunch. & I'm sure he definitely will be late! LOL~ That's his forte. (:

On a separate note, I think I made someone angry a moment ago. Sigh, sorry if I made you angry about the changing of venue. ):

Sigh, BYE!

2008-03-26T22:13:00.000+08:00

I almost said it out just now...

2008-03-26T20:45:00.001+08:00

I hoped that I can hang on.
& I really hope so.
Outing with jie was real fun. (:
But once I reached home,
all the fun feeling gone...

Ps: I still don't feel good. Headache like as if it's splitting into two halves. Sigh..
PPS: I think I'm grounding myself for a moment. Will not be online-ing this period. Contact me via phone. Thanks. Bye~

2008-03-25T17:41:00.000+08:00

I don't feel good now, I think I'm sick.
Ps: Take care of yourself. I think you're in a bad state either.

2008-03-24T20:13:00.000+08:00

Heyo Homosapians!
I'm a good girl today, because I'm not tempt by tham to go arena with her. I decided to stay at home and study instead of going out to play. ((: *pad on my head. Good girl! ^^

Hmms, quite a boring day leh. Nothing much happen . Had my lunch at pizza hut this afternoon with Jacq Yvonne and Jo.Then all headed home after that except Jo, she went to meet pei yi.. Played viwawa just now with stranger for awhile and came to update liao.
Aiyer, very bored leh. Nothing to blog about also.

Chemistry and Poa is driving me crazy.
Maths is making me happy. (:
Chinese is a relieved.
English is still alright.
Geog got people coaching me.
Ss is in progress. ((:

Ok, it's very random.
There's Rev-up tomorrow. I lazy to bring uniform lehs. But bo bian. Sigh... Tomorrow gonna be a long day. Lessons still 1.30pm. Structure remedial till 4plus or 5pm? Oh my, tiring day~

On a brighter note, I seems to like my turtle-shell-like-bag-pack more and more each day. (:
Ok, & Psp Dj Max is another loved! ♥.♥

Ohoh! I just remember something that I wanna blog about.
I wanna watch a lot a lot of movie! I haven't watch a lot of them lehs.
-The Spiderwick Chronicles.
-Step up 2
-Rule #1
-Sky of love
-Horton ( I know you're in there~ Hello~Hello~Hello~)
-Semi-Pro
-The Orphanage
-Be Kind Rewind.

Lol~ Movies that I wanna watch is like damn loads alright. TSK!
Mummy Daddy, Why don't you guys go print money?
LOL~okok, lame. BYE!

2008-03-24T01:37:00.000+08:00

Hey people! It's 1:37am right now, & I can't get into my beauty sleep. I don't know why. Maybe due to the frequent late night sleep the past few days? Sigh, out of a sudden, I felt so moodless. Why uh? Sigh.. Just now in cab , on my way home, I feel like messaging ** . But something stop me from doing it. My heart asked me not to. Why? I just wanna show some concern to ** . But why does my heart told me not to? Sigh..

Sometimes, I really wished that I never really met ** before. Then I won't feel like this now. Previously, I told myself that I've already sorted out my feelings. But why is it that I felt this way now? Is it because I still can't find another one to put in effort on? Or is it because I'm just deceiving myself all along? Sigh, why must I always thought of ** and put everything about ** in the first place? Why must I be so stubborn or so attach to the things about **? Am I ill? Oh gawd..

On a separate note, I feel like sleeping right now, but I can't! Seeing both my mama and brother sleeping, also both of my maid sleeping, I felt somnolent either. Reason for not going to sleep is still the same, it's already 2:12 am right now, if I fall sleep right now, I won't be able to wake up in 3 hours time. That's why I gave it a miss to sleep right now.

I'm listening to this song right now. The lyric is... Oh my God. Sigh..
Title: 男人女人

爱爱爱爱了几回
也明白其中滋味
付出的从来不会等于收回
我却还在等待着谁能出现

伤伤伤伤了几回
也曾经为爱憔悴
爱情里好人总比坏人狼狈
我却还是学不会狠心对谁

男人男人多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼
女人女人我答应做个好人
我答应用我一生来换你的快乐一生

爱爱爱爱了几回
也明白其中滋味
付出的从来不会等于收回
我却还在等待着谁能出现

伤伤伤伤了几回
也曾经为爱憔悴
爱情好人总比坏人狼狈
我却还是学不会狠心对谁

男人男人多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼
女人女人我答应做个好人
我答应用我一生来换你的快乐一生

男人男人多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼
女人女人我答应做个好人
不会再让我(你)心疼　一等再等
你就是我等的那个人

男人男人
女人女人
多么希望你是对的人

S= sensible?

2008-03-23T18:18:00.000+08:00

Hmms, here to update about something that I gonna do next week. If not I forget , someone gonna scold me liao. ):

Monday and Tuesday currently still nothing going on.
Wednesday meeting brother's girlfriend for a movie.
Thursday meeting Man Jing for study session.
Friday still nothing going on.
Saturday and Sunday either day having lunch with father brother and cousin.

Ok, that's it about my next week's plan.

Well, as for today, just came back not long ago only.
Went out for my dinner with father brother and cousin.
Had a small talk with cousin. I then realize many stuffs. It's already 2008 , and gangsters are no longer a "In-fashion" stuff. I just find it childish (not implying on anyone). He was once a very very naughty boy. I can't find a word to describe him leh. Ok, in Chinese , it's 无药可救 in many people's eye. He went into Boys home very several time and now he's out, he had changed into a sensible child. He know that in this world, without a cert, you can't do anything.
Oh my, why am I saying so much of his stuff here? Okok, I'll stop la hor.
Just wanna say to those that are still not sensible enough , this is the time for you to think about your future already. Stop playing and work hard!
I'll stop visiting arena even if tham tempted me to go. I'll use the time that I visit arena to visit study room more often! Jia you Jia you! Who can motivate me? I need my motivation!

2008-03-22T11:17:00.001+08:00

I proudly announce: That's my balcony! (:

The couple.

Trying to act hardworking.

CYT! Stop sleeping! (:

Aiyer, nothing to do, so I uploaded some pics. Lol.
I know very little la. Next time upload more. (:

2008-03-22T10:19:00.000+08:00

Heyo Heyo!
I'm here to update!
Hmms , Let's see what shall I update on?

Ok, Wednesday.
I didn't went to school as my alarm clock went dead. -.-
It's truth! Believe me alright. I shall explain.
When I wake up that day, I thought it's still 3am, so I continue to sleep. But when I wake up the next time, I realize it's already daylight and I look at my alarm clock, it's still 3am! Damn! Then I look at my phone, it's already 7 plus. Then I say to myself, argh whatever, I shall continue to sleep since I've already overslept. LOL~
Then tham called me and say hey! I not going school le. You wanna eat breakfast? & at that point of time, I'm feeling damn sleepy. So I turn her offer down. I continue to sleep. But the next moment I wake up, it's just 5min later. Tham ring me up again. Asking if I wanna eat anything, she gonna pack food to my house. LOL . So I agreed , since there's someone buying breakfast for me. (: FREE LABOR. Hehe.
Ok, blah blah blah . Then I spent my noon and evening in arena playing pool. & I did my POA homework there! Woohoo~ It's the first time I completed a POA assignment mostly by my ownself. ((:
At night, I went to the clinic near my house and get myself an MC to answer to my school. -.- YT was kind enough to accompany me there and keep joking with me. (: Walk home after that.

Thursday.
Got myself a 2 days MC last night , so don't bother to go to school this morning. Then I forget what happen liao. xP

Friday.
GOOD FRIDAY!
I don't think my Good Friday not very good lehs. A bit boring? Cause I spent it like a normal day. Lol. Watched movie with Nic randomly when I met her. Initially only wanna meet her and ask her accompany me wait for time to reach and meet Cyn & co at stadium. But when I bypass the cinema, I told Nic that why not we catch a movie? & she agreed. So, we went to get a ticket for water horse. It's quite nice! Some part really scares a child that he cried in between the show. Oh my, yet his father told the others that it's because he got care, concern and compassion that he finds the water horse so poor thing when the it's currently showing a bombing scene. What's there to do with care , concern and compassion? Oh my. Ok, enough of that. Then, after the show, I took 193 to arena meet them, but by coincidence I met them in bus. Reached arena and it's packed with loads of people and the tables are all full. Luckily we saw Jian Yang and co. Then after awhile, one table is vacant , so we took that table. Bus down to Pioneer mall and had our dinner cum supper there. Then around 11 plus, I cab home.

Saturday.
Which is today. Hmms, later going to Zhou's kitchen to have lunch with tham and mao. Alright, everyone wake up le. I'm going to prepare now. Today am an early bird. Lol, woke up at 9 am. Ok, BYE! Off to prepare! ((:

Ps:
Why love when you feel so miserable
Why love when you feel so sad
Why love when you feel so vexed
Why love when you keep hurting yourself
Why love when you know you will never get anything back from it
Why love when you keep numbing yourself with alcohol
Why love when you keep deceiving yourself about some truth..

2008-03-19T22:57:00.001+08:00

I'm lazy to update.
Shall update tomorrow. (:

(:

2008-03-14T15:18:00.000+08:00

Ok, ignore the previous post if you think that I'm a lunatic.
I saw this on YT's nick.
"A person often runs into his destiny on the road he takes to avoid it."
& I find it rather true.

Alright, change topic.
I might be going out with tham & co. later on. But I'm really contradicting myself whether to go or not. As I don't want to go due to the existence of someone there, and also, I wanted to watch movie with Roy, Pz and Jenini. But I don't know whether they wanted to go a not? There's no conclusion between our conversation just now. Pz's still sleeping right now, and Roy keep wanting me to make the decision. Jenini wanted to watch midnight show . But I'm not sure if I'm able to make it. Aiya~ I really don't know lehs. Maybe will postpone it to tomorrow or what loh. See how first ba.

Ok, then now, tham wants me to meet her when she reach Jurong later on. But I'm still on the verge of saying no, as I really don't wish to meet up with some one leh leh leh! & I'm also quite angry with ** because we're suppose to go out today and it's only the two of us. But ended up two other people pop out and it destroyed the whole plan la!
Sigh..

I'm alone at home now. I'm feeling bored. Someone please entertain me. Psp is still charging. Viwawa is kind of bored to me already. Online audition makes my heart thump faster then usual as I'll get nervous if I can't catch up. So to prevent myself from getting heart failure, I guess I'll give it a pass. Watching movie online needs a lot of time to load. I don't wanna waste time on waiting for it to load. Then what can I do? URGH! xP!

Boring freak!

2008-03-14T14:47:00.000+08:00

PSP AUDITION IS LOVED! (:

Hmms, happen to bypass someone's blog. Read her few months ago de post. My gawd, I then realize that how boring my life is. When I read those post and look at those pictures that she took with her friends, I don't know why I kept smiling to myself. I guess I'm really envied with her type of friendship. That group of clique of hers doesn't care about how others think of them, they just wanna live their life to the fullest. Dressing in the most funniest yet fancy way, taking pictures of the way they wanted in the middle of no where. Going to the places that they wanted to go, be it with a group of friend or just two of them. Sigh, I'm jealous ! Really jealous la!

Then I asked myself, why am I in this state? Is it because I don't know how to choose friend? Or is it the group of friend that I had is just some no life freak? Should I blame them or myself? Or even maybe, I don't know how to find some joy some excitement to paint my life? Or is it me myself the one who is unable to shove off the image that I gave everyone? I can't shove off the image of being decent? I really wish to do something special. Something that will change my life. I wanna find a new friend. A friend that will fulfill everything that I wished to do. A friend that is willing to do silly stuffs with me. A friend that has the same common idea as me. Sigh, but where? The friends now are those that can't afford to go out and play and spend money on the things they wanted when they have the money . I seriously don't know why must they keep so much money when they are not even spending it on anything?! Why must they ill-treat them by coping them inside the egg shells and obstruct people from bringing them out to have fun and know more about the world. They may say that Singapore is small and nothing to play with. It isn't true! There are abundance of stuffs that they didn't make an effort to take look at it or to enjoy it or whatever . ARGH! A bunch of prosaic people! xPppPP
The friends I have now is like, study , work , play badminton , play pool , accompany boyfriend , accompany girlfriend. Rarr! Everyone look so dull to me. TSK!

How am I gonna be happy everyday if my day was to just rot at home , play pool , use com. It's very dull and uninteresting. Like when I look at my post in the past, nothing really excites me. It's almost the same if you read carefully. Gosh. I'm insane! I don't know what am I writing . I guess I'll stop this post already .
Bye Dull Freak~!

2008-03-12T23:07:00.000+08:00

Today is a very boring day. Supposedly I have school in the morning, but I overslept. In the end, I slept till 11am. Prepared and went meeting Yvonne Ho and headed to CKH's house next. Reached, chit chatted for awhile and initially wanted to have lunch with him de but both tian and me think that it's too late le, so we headed to arena via cab. As we are feeling hungry, we alighted at burger king and had our lunch there . As usual, we competed on who's the fastest eater. & I won! We stuffed everything in our mouth and slowly munched it. Lol! The feeling very nice loh! People go try ok? Lol. Then meet ManJing there and went to play pool . Saw one of my previous working friend and surprisingly , he still remember me! (: Alright, played till 4pm and went off already, because wet wet going her mum there to help out. So we left the place and cab back home with wet wet. I then rot at home all the way till now. & it's 11.22pm already. I don't know if I want to go to school tomorrow. As I'm feeling kinda lethargic right now.

Alright, I shall update about yesterday. (:
Went to town with Cyn, Yi tian & Jing Lin. Watched Ps. I Love you at Shaw house. Hmms, starting was still alright, but after the show, I felt kinda pekchek over someone. Aww, I shouldn't bring it up. Think I shall stop it now. Then after the show, which is around 9 plus going to 10, we trained back home. On the way back saw Daniel and Dassyali. Headed down to top up my Ez-link card and guess who I saw? I saw my good friend! GPZ. (: They are heading to Zouk. But sadly, they can't get in because it's full. Got this news only today from Yvonne. Lol~ Alright, back to topic. Saw him and didn't notice he was with a huge group of friend! Let me recall, there's Wu papa, HaiHui, Kelvin, Robin, Shiquan, Wenjie, Mizan, Kun Biao, Kerbe, Freddy, Nelson, Jing Yao, Tsui, Jin Sheng, Jian Zhen, Brann and maybe somemore? Sorry if I forget some of them . & I know that Seng and ah Kok (I think so?) on the way there . But by the time they reached, both me and Cyn would have left already. Chit chatted alot with Wu papa and left for home. Reached home and use lappy for awhile , then headed for my bed at around 12am.

Can't wake up today due to late night sleep yesterday. Hehe . *excuses I know. xP
Well, it's 11:44pm now. So, I'm off to hit the sheets soon. As I'm afraid I might not go for my supplementary again. Sigh! TIRED~
Bye HOMO SAPIENS~
NIGHTS!

A little pictures to brighten up my post. (:

2008-03-10T22:23:00.000+08:00

I had a very-not-very-boring day. Lol~ Contradicting I know. (:
Because it can't be counted as very boring , but also quite boring at the same time. HEHE.
Alright, just like what I wrote in previous post, I went out with Yvonne Jo, and Nic. Met them and went to JE for our lunch. But didn't went for our lunch straight after when we reach Je, because we met Wet wet and friends there. Talked to tham about the matters between me and someone, and suddenly Cyn they all bugged in. Chided them and they went out. Lols, Sorry! But I just don't want to be disturbed.
After which, we went to have our lunch and intended to play pool at K pool. But Jo as wearing her ITE uniform, so we were told to leave the place. TSK~ Then , we went to arcade and watch people play. Lols. Feeling bored, me and Jo went to watch people fall down! Wahahaha -evil grins. Then Yvonne came, (she went to IMM with nic after lunch) then we left for arena. Hehe.
Saw some people there , primary school friend, Kenji, Robin, Shi Quan, KAH SIONG! Notice I caps Kah siong? Reason being I've not met him for years! But sadly, he forget me. ): Because I've not been in the same class with him before. Sigh. Lol!
Then, around 8pm, we went off already.Took 172 with Yvonne and she's a lap sap kia! (: Alright, reached home at around 8plus going to 9pm.
Nothing much la, don't know why also that I putting my blog as public again. Lol~ I'm weird I guess? In the past, I don't want people to know I got blog because I'm afraid someone might think that I'm following her footsteps. But the reason for me using back blogspot is because I find blogspot easier to use and can insert background plus songs. (:

ALRIGHT! I'm gonna stop now, and to remind somebody, if he happens to see this la. Please remember to go to your training tomorrow. ^^

What does LOVE consists of?

2008-03-10T11:47:00.000+08:00

Love is a game
just meant to be played.
Love is a phrase
just overly clichéd.

It's dominated by cheaters,
players, and rule-breakers.
Where three words often said
are lies spoken by fakers.

Love is an emotion
and hormones are the cause.
Love is perfection
that brings out your flaws.

Young ones are swayed
into believing that it's real.
Soon concious of mistakes,
next fear is what you feel.

Love is a wish
desired by so many loners.
Love is a sight
shown off by its owners.

It's a sad pathetic world
when love is only wanted,
for the sake of having it,
and for it to be flaunted.

Love is a drug,
addictive and strong.
Love is a toy.
and you're strung along.

The endings are painful,
yet again you will start,
to end with more lies and tears,
and another cruelly broken heart.

Love is a reason
to be treated like dirt.
Love is an excuse,
an excuse to get hurt

2008-03-10T10:43:00.000+08:00

hello PEOPLE! (:
I'm super early today. Unlike any other days that I can sleep till very very late, I woke up at 8am this morning. Yawns. Reason being , everyone of my family thought that I had school today and keep morning call me to wake me up! Sigh, they destroyed my wonderful and beautiful morning! ):

Well, I'm going out later with Yvonne and Nicole, We're going to fetch Jo at her school when she ends! Hoho~ After which, we're going to IMM and shop around . Hmms, hope that my holiday won't be wasted? I don't want to waste my holiday boringly lehs!

Eh! Nothing to blog lehs. Sian~
On a separate note, I'm disappointed in somebody . Fcuks~ Never know that she will do this type of thing loh. Smack her! xP But Louise Lee is a very nice girl, so I've forgiven her. But still, I'm very very disappointed.
Aiya~ Very random la. I'm getting more and more bored over here. Bye!
Update when I'm back tonight! (:

Ps: I miss wet wet! Pool session!
P/ps: I hope you listen to my advice.

What is a good friend?

2008-03-09T07:24:00.000+08:00

I had a wonderful night yesterday.
Sneaked out of house at 2 in the morning as Seng complained that he's hungry, and I can't get into my beauty sleep. Therefore, I went out to meet him. On the way there, I was alone! I was feeling kinda scared and I called Pz to ask him to talk over the phone with me. Thanks Pz. Talk for only a short and sweet 6min, then I met Seng at Gek Poh. Hang up with Pz, and chit chatted with Seng.

Accompany him for his dinner/supper, and after awhile, Jon Lim came. Both of them are talking about Dota thing? & I know nothing about it, so I just sat there and stare blankly. Shortly after, Seng asked me to go to Pz house first, as some thing's going on and if I'm there, it wouldn't be convenient. So, I cab down to Pz house.
Starting, he was playing with audition , and I started a topic about something and he got interested that he stopped playing audition. He joined me with the chat, and it lasted for a good 2 hours!
Had a heart to heart chat with him and it makes me understand more things. I realize about my mistakes, which I didn't reveal to him, but it doesn't matter if he knows it or not. I understand many many things that are kept beneath the truth. We gave each other our point of view on several matters .
I'm really relieved to see that he's finally thinking on those things that benefits him more instead of something that ain't good for him. I'm really relieved to see that he's keeping up the good work on going for his training like how he promised.
Sigh, but something he told me really disheartened me. (He don't know it .) Well, life still have to go on. I guess after the chat, he can think wisely in the future and aimed hard for his goal!
加油 GPZ! My 好朋友 always! (:
On a brighter note, after so long of not contacting each other, we still can hold a heart to heart chat that night. (: I'm really contented with it. Thanks GPZ! ♥